I am 22. I have no friends, no experience with girls at all, am extremely socially awkward, I am fat and dirty and I have no personality, no skills or talent or passion either, no motivation, no money, I'm extremely lazy and irresponsible, I'm addicted to various drugs, I'm not manly at all and I'm a sick fuck (not going into detail) to boot, I'm afraid of every little thing and I have no willpower. If I had to describe myself in one word, I'm a loser.
And whenever I can't get drugs or alcohol to take my mind off it, this is what happens. Because it all looks so bleak and hopeless.
So tell me /prog/, what went wrong and can you help me?
Thank you and sorry. I promise this won't happen again.
Go back to school and take the second seat from the back next to the window.
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Anonymous2012-04-03 21:46
You're just like me sans drugs! Only thing to do is to ignore yourself.
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Anonymous2012-04-03 22:30
Try to get a hobby other than sitting around your house on the computer. Maybe tennis or swimming or something just to keep busy with other stuff than sitting around feeling down. Also >>2
>>5
This is the answer right here, combined >>4's sage advise: become a SICP monk, and meditate on the mysteries of lambda until you achieve Satori and every knot you perceive now is unraveled as a list is by cdr.
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Anonymous2012-04-03 23:08
You are a living, thinking and emotional being so make that'll improve your mind, body and spirit. When you decide what to do, have the perseverance to actually carry it out.
>>2-5
All sound advice. >>6
School would destroy him and i dont think school is of any use. >>8
This is the second best advice you can get. But do you really want to see a fat ugly fuck half naked? >>9,10
Go away. >>11,12
This is the very best advice there is, but this can be very tough.
I suggest you get a hobby and try to gain skills before attempting such a thing.
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112012-04-04 9:23
>>13
Well, no, I mean, a monastic outlook may be of help here, but the >>4's recommendation to consume drugs should be taken very carefully; it's well known that, for example, psychobilin ('shrooms) will completely fuck you up if you are going through emotional turmoil, or that taking psychedelics may unlock your special schizophrenia powers (you must have the predisposition, though), which will enable to see the world just as tdavis does.
I was actually just trolling, but lots of people report benefits from meditating in your position, OP. I haven't actually put enough effort to say so myself...
Getting serious about programming may also distract you, but I found that attempting to concentrate while being unraveled by despair was quite hard.
Seeking therapy is always an option. Even the fact that you have some assured empathy in the form of the therapist will improve your condition.
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Anonymous2012-04-04 9:35
realize that someday you and everyone around you will be dead and ultimately nothing you do, not even your emotions, matter
quit giving such a big fuck
everyone eats, shits, sleeps, fucks, and dies
>>14
I'm actually considering seeking therapy. Can I tell my therapist everything? Even illegal things (I'm not talking about drugs or whatever but stuff that's really illegal?)
>>16
Well, I think that if you reveal that you're a pedophile to them, they're legally bound to report you, it doesn't matter if you've done anything really.
If it makes you feel any better, I was virgin until I was 25.
I am short and super skinny. Throughout my high school years, I 've been calleed faggot pretty much everyday.
I was in school all my life doing BS and MS in CS and I didn't know anything about dealing with girls, while writing something like 1KLOC a day on all kinds of side projects.
But OP, don't feel bad.
If you are a good programmer, you'll get a good job. And there will be a girl for you some where.
All those time coding finally paid off for me.
I now work at a large investment firm in NYC as a junior software architect and starting salary is over 100k.
With money comes, things, and with things comes girls.
>>33
Nope, although those are some sweet ass doubles you've got there.
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Anonymous2012-04-05 13:04
dont worry op. i stopped being virgin and such a loser when i was 30. i now win 100k euros per month and have the only copy of half life ep3. gaben is my friend
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Anonymous2012-04-05 13:05
I'm an epic loser and I still lost my virginity at 19 y/o. Kill yourself.