sad

I am 22. I have no friends, no experience with girls at all, am extremely socially awkward, I am fat and dirty and I have no personality, no skills or talent or passion either, no motivation, no money, I'm extremely lazy and irresponsible, I'm addicted to various drugs, I'm not manly at all and I'm a sick fuck (not going into detail) to boot, I'm afraid of every little thing and I have no willpower. If I had to describe myself in one word, I'm a loser.
And whenever I can't get drugs or alcohol to take my mind off it, this is what happens. Because it all looks so bleak and hopeless.
So tell me /prog/, what went wrong and can you help me?

Thank you and sorry. I promise this won't happen again.

>>13
Well, no, I mean, a monastic outlook may be of help here, but the >>4's recommendation to consume drugs should be taken very carefully; it's well known that, for example, psychobilin ('shrooms) will completely fuck you up if you are going through emotional turmoil, or that taking psychedelics may unlock your special schizophrenia powers (you must have the predisposition, though), which will enable to see the world just as tdavis does.

I was actually just trolling, but lots of people report benefits from meditating in your position, OP. I haven't actually put enough effort to say so myself...

Getting serious about programming may also distract you, but I found that attempting to concentrate while being unraveled by despair was quite hard.

Seeking therapy is always an option. Even the fact that you have some assured empathy in the form of the therapist will improve your condition.