sad

I am 22. I have no friends, no experience with girls at all, am extremely socially awkward, I am fat and dirty and I have no personality, no skills or talent or passion either, no motivation, no money, I'm extremely lazy and irresponsible, I'm addicted to various drugs, I'm not manly at all and I'm a sick fuck (not going into detail) to boot, I'm afraid of every little thing and I have no willpower. If I had to describe myself in one word, I'm a loser.
And whenever I can't get drugs or alcohol to take my mind off it, this is what happens. Because it all looks so bleak and hopeless.
So tell me /prog/, what went wrong and can you help me?

Thank you and sorry. I promise this won't happen again.

If it makes you feel any better, I was virgin until I was 25.
I am short and super skinny. Throughout my high school years, I 've been calleed faggot pretty much everyday.
I was in school all my life doing BS and MS in CS and I didn't know anything about dealing with girls, while writing something like 1KLOC a day on all kinds of side projects.
But OP, don't feel bad.
If you are a good programmer, you'll get a good job. And there will be a girl for you some where.
All those time coding finally paid off for me.
I now work at a large investment firm in NYC as a junior software architect and starting salary is over 100k.
With money comes, things, and with things comes girls.