Advice on relationship?

I finally let him cross out of the friend zone when, in mid-April, I realized that I refused to even attempt a relationship with anyone nearby because I felt like I would be cheating on him. It was an emotional night, and we've been together lovingly ever since. It's been about a month and a half now.

The problem is that I feel lonely. In none of my relationships, I've actually been in contact with my boyfriend. But this time, it is different. We actually have a plan to meet up that can and will work. But that's not good enough. I've never truly felt safe. Not in over a decade. What I truly yearn for is just to be hugged... to actually feel safe once in my life. I feel I can wait for him though, but a small part of me is unsure.

Now the reason I actually said all of this:
What should I do? I'm in a good relationship online that would probably go off real well in real life. But there are other possibilities. There are other guys living in the same city I live in, but the guys I've met, despite their words (I'll keep you safe, etc.), it just seems they just want a good fuck. I'm still a virgin, and for some paranoid reason, I want to keep it until it's with that right person. What should I do?

tl;dr - Kept my current bf in friend zone for a while; relationship is long-distance; asking for advice

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FRIEND ZONE

We've all been there before. It's painful as hell and near impossible to get out of without something drastic happening. But... honestly, I have kept someone who I love and who loves me in the friend zone. We've been friends for years.

Back towards the beginning of the year, near early-to-mid February, that's when I learned his feelings for me (I had gotten out of my previous relationship in early January). He was always sweet, caring, and there for me. (Also, I'm gay, but not a fag.) He seemed pretty much perfect for me. He could come to /b/ and authentically not be an newfag. But I digress...

For months, I kept him in the friend zone, partly because I wasn't ready, and partly for another reason I'll say later. He would talk to me every day online as soon as possible, and we would talk until one of us would have to go for some reason. But despite all of that... I still kept him in the friend zone, and I felt horrible for it.

Now for the problem: He lives in Virginia. I live in Arizona. It's not exactly like I just walk next door to meet with him. Part of the reason I kept him in the friend zone for so long was because we lived so far away. I've been in two previous long-distance relationships, and I just got hurt in the end.

Slap dat bitch.

>>2
(Also, I'm gay, but not a fag.)
I LOL'd.

Ah, the age old question, to be or not to be? Well, if I had to guess I would have to say that I have no flippin clue about relationships, never been in one in my life. Every confrontation I've ever been in has ended in me appearing foolish and the other person "winning". So, I have to say that conversation isn't my strong suit, which means I'm totally handsome. *really sucks too* I just wish I could get my transitional conversation skills down as well. I mean, I've already got the skill to listen to people as though I were learning something new, even if what is said appears to be something I already know I give the other person a chance to be the informer, if you will. It's kinda tricky though. I feel strange when it happens, and I really don't understand a whole lot about it. Even now, I'm avoiding answering the main topic directly, cause really how can a 30+ lonely virgin know anything about relationships? Ah, oh well, I guess I'm going to head back to finish my thesis on "pseudo-religious neuro-psychological potential and kinetic cognition and self-awareness". That'll cheer me back up.

>>5
STFU, A2U poaster.  Your obvious poasting style is obvious.

>>6
GTFO, A2U poaster. Your obvious poasting style is obvious.

So, I finally found you RedCram! I thought you were smarter than that, and here you are, creating a God of your own...Me. Well, thank you for giving me my due by acknowledging my existence and responding as though I was a real person. You are a true believer. When next you pray, please let me know how those brand new waflsnax were, I'm pretty anxious up here.

Acknowledging your pathetic existence is no more effort than noting the body of a crushed possum at the side of the road ... and it contains as little significance, too, to wit:

A2U = dead rodent

If you think you have divine status, merely demonstrate your divine power.  Since you have none, what follows should be entertaining, albeit pathetic and stupid.

BTW, how's it going trying to pass off belief in a deity as sane and rational?  It must be a real chore, since YOU HAVE NO FUCKING EVIDENCE FOR SAID DEITY.  Buttcock.

>>9
I really like the bit where you talk about the elephants doing it

>>9

LMAO! "To wit"? Who fucking talks like that? I can almost smell the chunks of uneaten McRib Sandwich in your beard which has pretty much grown over your fat faggot neck! Kill yourself, Shitcream!

Yeah! NeckBeardCream!! Why don't you go and take a shit in your sink!!

>>11
Who fucking talks like that?

He's not talking, dumbass.

>>13
I can almost smell the chunks of uneaten McRib Sandwich in your beard which has pretty much grown over your fat faggot neck!

Who fucking talks like that? You must be a worthless piece of human debris.

>>13

Talking, writing, WHATEVER. You know what I meant you RedCream sympathing cock-snortlin' fag!

>>14

A very hilarious person, that's who! Neckbeard Cream jacks off into his own navel and picks at the dried crust while posting.

>>11
Who talks like that?  People who read books and think, compared to a shitheel like you who zones out with fucking "weewee" (i.e. a Wii and some marijuana ("weed")) on a daily basis to avoid all responsibility whatsoever.

Cockape.

>>14 is right, now that RedCream has been identified as "worthless piece of human debris" what do we usually do with "debris"? We put it into the recycling bin, allow other people that need jobs at the recycling plant to sort him out just like God would, and then put what's left of his sorry remains into the Elysian Fields called a landfill. Bon Voyage, RedCream.*sounds like he's got STD issues he'd like to share, but who wants to receive any of his anal eruptions, certainly not me. And yesh, I do know your nature RedCream, I know it just as I know my own history, the differences between you and I? I record my own personal history onto DVD while you would much rather forget. So, go forget yourself into a dumpster, forget to slide the rusty knife a-cross your chin or forget to 'squeeze' the sticky trigger with the forgotten gun pointed between your brow and allow nature to take its coarse. If you read this, make shore you take you're shit when you leave and contemplate evarything I slay with the handy use of a pocket dickshownary. FOR YOU'RE I'S & MINED ONLY, ReedCram*

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