Advice on relationship?

I finally let him cross out of the friend zone when, in mid-April, I realized that I refused to even attempt a relationship with anyone nearby because I felt like I would be cheating on him. It was an emotional night, and we've been together lovingly ever since. It's been about a month and a half now.

The problem is that I feel lonely. In none of my relationships, I've actually been in contact with my boyfriend. But this time, it is different. We actually have a plan to meet up that can and will work. But that's not good enough. I've never truly felt safe. Not in over a decade. What I truly yearn for is just to be hugged... to actually feel safe once in my life. I feel I can wait for him though, but a small part of me is unsure.

Now the reason I actually said all of this:
What should I do? I'm in a good relationship online that would probably go off real well in real life. But there are other possibilities. There are other guys living in the same city I live in, but the guys I've met, despite their words (I'll keep you safe, etc.), it just seems they just want a good fuck. I'm still a virgin, and for some paranoid reason, I want to keep it until it's with that right person. What should I do?

tl;dr - Kept my current bf in friend zone for a while; relationship is long-distance; asking for advice

Acknowledging your pathetic existence is no more effort than noting the body of a crushed possum at the side of the road ... and it contains as little significance, too, to wit:

A2U = dead rodent

If you think you have divine status, merely demonstrate your divine power.  Since you have none, what follows should be entertaining, albeit pathetic and stupid.

BTW, how's it going trying to pass off belief in a deity as sane and rational?  It must be a real chore, since YOU HAVE NO FUCKING EVIDENCE FOR SAID DEITY.  Buttcock.