Advice on relationship?

I finally let him cross out of the friend zone when, in mid-April, I realized that I refused to even attempt a relationship with anyone nearby because I felt like I would be cheating on him. It was an emotional night, and we've been together lovingly ever since. It's been about a month and a half now.

The problem is that I feel lonely. In none of my relationships, I've actually been in contact with my boyfriend. But this time, it is different. We actually have a plan to meet up that can and will work. But that's not good enough. I've never truly felt safe. Not in over a decade. What I truly yearn for is just to be hugged... to actually feel safe once in my life. I feel I can wait for him though, but a small part of me is unsure.

Now the reason I actually said all of this:
What should I do? I'm in a good relationship online that would probably go off real well in real life. But there are other possibilities. There are other guys living in the same city I live in, but the guys I've met, despite their words (I'll keep you safe, etc.), it just seems they just want a good fuck. I'm still a virgin, and for some paranoid reason, I want to keep it until it's with that right person. What should I do?

tl;dr - Kept my current bf in friend zone for a while; relationship is long-distance; asking for advice

Ah, the age old question, to be or not to be? Well, if I had to guess I would have to say that I have no flippin clue about relationships, never been in one in my life. Every confrontation I've ever been in has ended in me appearing foolish and the other person "winning". So, I have to say that conversation isn't my strong suit, which means I'm totally handsome. *really sucks too* I just wish I could get my transitional conversation skills down as well. I mean, I've already got the skill to listen to people as though I were learning something new, even if what is said appears to be something I already know I give the other person a chance to be the informer, if you will. It's kinda tricky though. I feel strange when it happens, and I really don't understand a whole lot about it. Even now, I'm avoiding answering the main topic directly, cause really how can a 30+ lonely virgin know anything about relationships? Ah, oh well, I guess I'm going to head back to finish my thesis on "pseudo-religious neuro-psychological potential and kinetic cognition and self-awareness". That'll cheer me back up.