When will I cry?

So here's the story all about how my life got flipped, turned upside down.  Since I've been twelve or thirteen I've had a life changing revelation and decided to be gruff and manly.  No longer would I cry, but instead swear and grit my teeth, manly-like.  Now, the unaccounted-for consequence of this is that a couple times each year, I feel depressed and really do want to cry--but I can't.  Tears won't flow, eyes won't water, these wounds they will not heeaaaaaaaallllll.

Am I broken, lounge?

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No?

You just have learned that life sucks and crying doesnt help.
Welcome to reality.

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>>1
Don't worry, sometime in the future when inevitably something fucked up happens you will cry. Unless of course you somehow manage to become spetsnaz berserker ninja in touch, but not part of reality type manly or something. Which is a state I am close to.

Update: I just got home and, tired from having woken up at Four AM for no discernable reason, collapsed into a chair doing dry sobs while saying "fuck" over and over.  No tears yet.

>>1
>>6
Why the fuck do you "feel depressed" if you want to be a man? If you "feel" like shit, tell yourself it doesn't mean shit. I still agree with >>5 though, eventually something other than random mental insanities of "I feel depressed, :(((((" will happen to you, and when you actually have a valid reason, you'll cry. But trust me though, I tried crying when my life went to hell and it didn't make a difference. A group got together, abused and raped the girl I was going to marry, about a month after she said yes. She's gone now, and crying never made one fucking bit of a difference for how I felt or the situation.

>>7
Who said I wanted to?  Just an anonymous in an anonymous thread making an anonymous post.  My eyes kinda hurt.