When will I cry?

So here's the story all about how my life got flipped, turned upside down.  Since I've been twelve or thirteen I've had a life changing revelation and decided to be gruff and manly.  No longer would I cry, but instead swear and grit my teeth, manly-like.  Now, the unaccounted-for consequence of this is that a couple times each year, I feel depressed and really do want to cry--but I can't.  Tears won't flow, eyes won't water, these wounds they will not heeaaaaaaaallllll.

Am I broken, lounge?

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Don't worry, sometime in the future when inevitably something fucked up happens you will cry. Unless of course you somehow manage to become spetsnaz berserker ninja in touch, but not part of reality type manly or something. Which is a state I am close to.