Ask a cancer patient anything

So here I am, Day+2 post-stem-cell transplant. Chemotherapy is already done and over with. Now I am sitting here for the next 12 days with what feels like food poisoning. I have Hodgkin's Lymphoma. You might remember me posting on here a while back that I had been diagnosed as recurrent. Just when I was 6 months in through ITT, this hits me out of the blue. Oh well, just got to grin and bare it. Time to get back to downloading some porn while at the hospital here. There servers suck, but I know how to subvert their policies. I swear I could design a way better system using notepad. XD HAHAHAHA. Feel free to boo, baw, cheer, or ignore. All are welcome! :D
Ask me anything and I'll try to reply with what's going on here at the Cancer Center. Pretty cush, but there is no mental challenges. Thank God I brought a laptop to fiddle around with. Some days are entirely boring as hell.

Do nurses ever bend over so you see some ass, or over you so you see some tit?

I've thought about that, but they seem to be taking extra precautions to make sure nothing falls out or is revealed. Their scrubs and gowns are way too tight. But I will say one thing, some of them are fucking fine as hell! One is young and spry, the other is tattooed and punkish, and one is wholesome and kind. It's a very inspiring atmosphere and I wish I was in a little better shape to flirt with them. Most days I'm the picture of death all pale/white eyes-sunk-in, etc. I'm sure they don't see me as attractive, especially after I take large craps in the toilet that they have to measure and clean. I kind of feel sorry for them, but what can I do? I can't do their job for them. :/
I wish I could at least have the immune system to make some oral with the one young spry girl though. She's so saucy! :d...

Pretty much ran out of steam tonight. I'll be up some time tomorrow to post some more updates on here. Shit's going to get much harder before it gets better. :/

>>1
Did they show you le tomor they removed?

>>5
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BACK TO REDDIT PLEASE!

do you ever say, mmmmm chemolicious

Do you own a cat? Have you ever owned one? Would you like to own one? Why/why not?

>>5
They never showed me the golf-ball sized tumor they biopsied, but they said it was okay cause there was a softball sized one still there to work with.

>>7
I haven't yet, but I have been calling my girlfriends "[name]-licious" for some time now.

>>8
My family does own a cat. We've owned many cats in the past. I don't particularly like cats enough to own one myself anymore. I would have to say that the people that have taken care of the cats I've had to live with never did a good enough job (letting them shit all over the place, stink up their places with feces and urine and vomit, always tearing shit up, and eating garbage when the owners couldn't afford food). It's turned me off of cat-ownership permanently.

Right now I'm having to deal with thrush (swollen tongue, sore throat and mouth, mucus). Miracle mouth wash can be used, but it's a silly old folk remedy. It contains mailox, benedryl, and lidocaine. I swished the jelly around in my mouth for a few minutes and swallowed. All it managed to do was get me a lil high, numb as hell and an upset stomach. It lasted all of about 2 hours when the burnt-tongue sensation (thrush) came back. Now I'm just sucking on ice-cubes till these two weeks are up.

Btw, is is notoriously annoying to try to download anything through the hospital servers, but it sure keeps me entertained to find out just how many policies I can break. I haven't found a way to enable p2p, but ddls seem to be working just fine. I'm shocked at what kinds of things I can still view on the interwebs, which is ironic, cause I must have a shock-fetish on account I keep coming back for more. 4chan has boards that I can still chat in which is nice, though I miss my /b/, /t/, /s/, /d/, and /h/. :'(

Tomorrow is Monday 20th. I still have about 10 days left in here. Just to let you know, the food sucks. You might expect that Shari's food is good, but it's not once you've had it for every meal the past week. I miss my Olive Garden, Red Lobster, McGrath's, and Claim Jumpers. :'d
I'll just keep trucking along till it's all over. :3

>>9
If you die, can I have your dildos?

>>10
I don't have any dildos, but the vibrator I did have I already gave to my step-sister as a birthday present. It was a wild surprise...and pretty bold for me at the time. :P

Yes, >>11-kun, be off with you, and all your dildo-loving sort. We do not accept dildo lovers here on /lounge/.

>>11
describe her ass

>>13
It's been a while since I've seen her, but her dimensions weren't your average. Her butt was pretty big, but her waist and tits were perfect. I've never seen her in the nude so it's hard to say for certain. I've only seen her in tight blue jeans and sweats.

So, I had an experience Monday. I woke up, ate some breakfast and got stomach cramps the likes of which I'd never had before. It felt like food-poisoning where I threw-up, had bad GI movements, but eventually they gave me immodium, zofran, prilosec, and lorazepam. Needless to say, I was out the entire day. I'm feeling pretty worn out right now, but I still have enough energy to get on here and let my fellow Anon's know what's going on. Today, Tuesday, is Day + 3/13. I'm probably going to have to get on the bike and do some walking today on account the physical therapist is going to hound me till I do it. I wish I could list sex with nurses as part of my physical therapy. I wonder what symbol I would use. :3
On Day +5/13, I start my Neubagen injections to help stimulate the production of stem-cells from my bone marrow. Those injections will continue until the day my counts come back up to normal around Day +12/13. The shit hurts, but the pain is making me stronger...I just have to keep telling myself that.
Well, hopefully today will be less eventful than yesterday, and all will be right and good until the end. G'night, fellow Anon's. I hope your Tuesday is one of excitement and thrills; one to be remembered. :3

>>14
Have you always been a pervert?

Why don't you take this to reddit where it belongs?

>>15
Whoa, take it easy, bro. Chemo guy hasn't done anything wrong yet, so there's no reason to be so hostile.

>>15
yeah, yeah. I've heard it all before. When girls say stuff like this it's erotic, but when guys do it it's obscene. I've never been to reddit and I don't plan on going there any time soon.

>>16
thanks for sticking up for me, bro. It's a tough place to be when no one has your back. I'm feeling a lil better this morning. I managed to get in some time with the stationary bike. Just 30 more minutes and I can finally order me some breakfast. I hope I don't get sick today like I did yesterday. Maybe I'll be safe with some hot oatmeal or something like that. :3

Today my counts are supposed to drop significantly. I may need a blood transfusion to get my counts back up so I can still be active. Yesterday was a good set-back, but it taught me a lot about what I take for granted; having a healthy immune system and being able to do whatever I want is a huge privilege. Well, I look forward to moving right along with this day, eating lots of hospital foods, exercising, and moving right along to Day +5/13 where I should start my neubagen injections. It can take up to a week before my immune system gets the numbers back to some semblance of normal, but it can take up to a year for my body to assimilate back to where I am able to do what I used to do before I started treatment. I do know I'll be taking some kind of anti-viral for at least a year after treatment. THis is going to be a unique ride for me. Looking forward to what comes next. :3
Everyone have a great day! :D

Okay. I just found out I am getting a blood transfusion today as well as being notified that I've gone from Leukopenic to Neutropenic so my white blood counts are so low that I am prone to infections. Hopefully over the next week or so those counts will steadily rise with the neubogen injections I'll be receiving. So long as I don't get mouth sores I should be primed and ready to be out of here early March. If not, I might be in the hospital for a week or so longer. We'll see how things turn out. Oh well, time to do some reading. Not much else to do on the interwebs today. :3

Maybe you can live in a bubble like bubble boy

Good news! I just found out how to circumvent Providence Wifi policies that typically prevent access to "certain sites". TOR. Simple as that. All I had to do was download, install, and run the programs, toggle the TOR status in Firefox. BAM! Instant access! And...once I enabled p2p with the socks5 proxy. BAM! Instant p2p access! I'm set. Got my movies downloading, got my image archives updated, and now I'm just rolling around trying to find some good stuff I've been missing out on for the past week. Very nice! The funny thing is I was able to download TOR straight through the policy, but I had to find a HOST site to download it from that was up-to-date. So, very nice...I get everything I want now. My next week will be rife with downloading goodness! >:D

>>19
I pretty much will be a bubble boy for the final week of my treatment. The room I'm in has airflow that only blows out air out of the room. But when it comes to visitors I can have some, but they can't be sick, they have to wear a mask, they have to sanitize their hands before I can even see them. It's scary, but I can't wait to see if this works and all my cancer goes byebye. Check ya guise later! I'm off to watch some fantastic shows I'm getting right now! >:D HAHAHAHAHA!!!

>>21
Keep yourself alive, dude!

lol have fun in hell dude! xD

It was hell, but now that I can download the new Umemaro 3d pizza girl and TSF Monogatari 2 when it comes out...I am going to have a great week. :3

So I got the Pizza Girl 3d from Umemaro. Played the game all the way through and got all the scenes unlocked. If anyone is lookign for the save data (data.dat) you can go to sukebe.nyaa.eu, look up umemaro 3d pizza, and any links that go to (eng subs) should have my three links to the save data file. It's not nearly as good as his previous works, but it's enough to get me excited. Looking forward to TSF Monogatari 2 coming out 24th, and Tentacle & Witches 3 in early march. Finally, this hospital stay isn't so sucky after all. :3

>>25
Have you fapped while in the hospital? It sounds like an exciting thing to do.

>>26
I was wondering when someone on here was going to ask me that. Believe it or not, they have a video surveillance on my bed 24/7. While I was a little hesitant at first I found that I could maneuver the table over "that" area while appearing to just be on my laptop browsing the web. I've managed to get away twice so far. It's difficult though cause of almost being caught. The nurses come in at different, overlapping times to check my iv's or blood pressure. It sure is a thrill though. Knowing I'm being video-taped by someone who might be watching me and getting excited by it, but also almost getting caught by hot nurses. It's definitely something to try out if you ever get the chance. I'm looking forward to more to cum. :3

Okay. Yesterday was really crappy. I had some bad GI problems that resulted in a scoreated anus. Now I've got to baby my butt with warm water, baby wipes, and aloe vera till I heal, but with having to USE that area daily it becomes troublesome and painful. Hopefully I wont' get any kind of infection that could lead to me dying or anything. We'll see how things turn out. It may be a couple of days before I start feeling the results. Man, just what I need, more complications. -_- *sigh*

>>28
scoreated anus
Oh dear! That sounds horrible. Now you can't even do anal! What a shame.

Stop attention whoring and fuck off to reddit. Do one of their shitty AMA

>>30
>>>someone who can't accept things for what they are. Shocker. :/

>>30
>>>can't accept things for what they are, thinks they know better.
>>>mfw
XD AHAHAHAHA!

>>29
I KNOW! RIGHT? I'm totally bumming out. :'<
Who knows, maybe I can get into see a proctologist after all of this is done and through and get that fixed so it'll make for "smooth sailing" in that department from then on. Sometimes the bad things that happen, happen so I can make them better in the long-run. That's the power of recovery! ;3

Do you like jazz music?

>>34
I'm not that into Jazz. Mostly I am into heavy metal, classical, and some j-pop.

I am so bummed out right now. There is pretty much nothing going on here. I already got TSF物語 2, and the new game CG from lilith-soft, 鋼殻のアイ. Being able to get around hospital policies using TOR was a piece of cake, getting p2p and flash GET to work with TOR was a little challenging with troubleshooting, but I managed that all-too-easily. This is pretty boring sitting here just typing my thoughts out on lounge, but what else is there to do when I'm neutropenic? Good news! My bottom isn't that sore any more, but there is still some residual discomfort that's being mended by some special creams.

Well, that's about all that's been going on here at the hospital. I'm probably going to be out of here sometime Tuesday or Wednesday. Thank God cause I am so friggin tired of eating their limited menu. I am so ready for some prime-rib, crab, lobster, pasta, and stuffed chicken marsala at Olive Garden. I am sooooooo ready to get back to reality. One month in the hospital is so lame.

My numbers are high enough that I'm good to be off fluids most of the day. Though there are times when I get a little light-headed I think that is just because I'm not doing what I usually do like working my ass off so I can enjoy myself. >:3

Oh well, we'll see how things turn out once I'm out of this joint.

Laters.

Do you fear death? Has this experience changed you in anyway?

Actually, this experience with cancer helped me to overcome my fear of death. I faced everything head-on taking on whatever may come. I can't think of anything that I am afraid of now. Mostly, it's been about what I don't like doing and doing that (working, schooling). All that's left to do now is get back to what I was doing before I was diagnosed and get on with the rest of my life. I only have a few more days left here in the hospital. I think the things that have changed in my life the most is that everything is off-set now. Instead of taking only 2 years to complete college it may take 2.5 - 3 years now also depending upon my financial obligations that were put on hold. No telling how much interest has accumulated till I look into it, but I'll take care of it just like I did the cancer. I used to be the kind of guy that would flinch at responsibility and obligation, but now I take care of it, take care of my past obligations, and everyone is happy especially me because lord knows I do not like being under someone else' thumb. Independence, choice, freedom are what I am seeking in this life and so long as I strive to achieve that, all else is the icing on the cake which I plan to have and eat too. >:3

>>37
Oh man, I need to get myself some cancer, if I want to turn my life around.

>>38
...or aids. Anything that puts your life in danger where you have no other choice but to face up to your own mortality is the best kind of life-challenge, imho. :3

Btw, my white blood counts are twice what they need to be, my hemoglobin is still a little low, so I am slightly anemic for the time being, and my platelet count is at 20,000 where it only needs to be at 50,000 in order for me to go home. It went up 6,000 from yesterday and the day before that was up 2,000 so tomorrow I could see something like a 18,000 point spike in my platelet count which means I might be going home tomorrow.

Here's the gist on what the next year is going to be like for me. My immune system is up high enough to fight most bacterial infections, however, I am still prone to fungal and viral infections for at least 1 year while my lymphocytes repopulate my body so I'm going to be on anti-viral medications for a year.

It's going to be touch-n-go for the first year, but hopefully after that I'll be back to what I should be, working, schooling, and having good times with friends. We'll see how things go from here.

Well now! I'm home! >:D
Time to get back...WTF HAPPENED TO MY ROOM!?! >:/

Okay, shit's not funny when someone else comes into your place, cleans up your shit so well you can't find anything anymore, and then says...WOOPS! I didn't mean to do that, it just happened.

>:| WTF, MAN?!?

My computer was all fubar until I figured out I had to unplug shit and plug it back in if it wasn't already unplugged. Things are in their place for a reason. Organizing according to "nothing" does not make it accessible. ie, covering my laundry hamper with a fan does not make it accessible, changing the order of my DVD collection does not make it accessible, randomly unplugging cords from my computer...does not make it accessible. Organization should be renamed, "ACCESSIBILITY," so that it is a 'working' organization instead of 'looking' organized. I swear. >:/