suiside question.

basicly im board with life.
i have no employable skill that would make a job fun to do, suck as drawing or something.
i am smart enough to know that my lot on life sucks, but im not smart enough to realy be able to change it from it sucks to it dosent, just from it sucks, but not it sucks in different ways.
in all honesty i can see the future of technology, and if i live life till im 80 ish, technology will get intresting agein, but untill than there realy isnt anything
and i also see the past as intresting, but nothing that i find intersting back than is still around today.

realy the only reason i am still alive is because there are no easy shure fire ways to kill myself at my disposal. and life dosent suck enough for me to kill myself in a painfull way.

so anyone know how to chear me up?

and for the record, i want to die because of bordom, not because im lonely. i chose to not have a girlfriend because when i finaly do hit the point of not careing about pain, i dotn want to feal guilty or to hold my self back and live an more or less empty life just for them.

its not realy depressed either, >>4

and i cant buy shit, i have a relitivly fixed amount of money.

what im wondering is if there is a way someone who can honestly say that dieing isnt the only option, well, there are other options like win the lottery, or something along those lines, but im talking about something that isnt so, 1 in 1000000000

and pills, if i am genuinly depressed, which i doubt, i wouldent take pills for it on the principal that if  pill can make me what to live, it would have to change my whole outlook on life and make me happy with liveing a shitty life to suport myself till i die of natural causes, and at that point i would no longer be me.