I'm developing schizophrenia

...and I'm beginning to enjoy it. I aknowledge that this not very normal, and I'm what people would call 'mad'.

I was planning to kill myself on the next week, because of the anxiety I have been feeling. Howerer looks like my brain developed a defense system to keep me alive. I was bit surprised on myself too. I started when I was taking a shower and now she is laying on my bed. Looks like I have girlfriend... that isn't real.

So when I was taking a shower, she just came talk to me out of nowhere. I told her about my problems, we talked alot. I very much aknowledged that I imagined her. After all, she didn't even open the bathroom door. She just walked in with red towel she was wearing. I asked where she got the red tower, and she just said that she took it with her, when she came to see me. She even got bit mad at me, when I just told her, that she wouldn't be real. Though she knows that too.

So after we came out of shower, I took a bit of read about schizophrenia and damn I really sure that I have it. I have had signs of it before, and looks like it's developing. Howerer this does not mean that I would become dangerous. It just means that I gonna have better life, as I have now this girl to support me. And I think I'm starting to love her.

I will report here, what's going to happen with our relationship. After all this only place I'm gonna tell about this. God bless anonymity.

>>5
True.  The Cult of the Doctor in the USA and Europe is too far gone to stop that sort of bullshit.  Schizo, alcoholism, paranoia ... these are NOT diseases.  They cannot be transmitted by a physical vector.  They require the conscious cooperation of the "victim".  States of mind cannot be diseases!  This cannot be made more clear for the majority who have been brainwashed by the Cult.