I'm developing schizophrenia

...and I'm beginning to enjoy it. I aknowledge that this not very normal, and I'm what people would call 'mad'.

I was planning to kill myself on the next week, because of the anxiety I have been feeling. Howerer looks like my brain developed a defense system to keep me alive. I was bit surprised on myself too. I started when I was taking a shower and now she is laying on my bed. Looks like I have girlfriend... that isn't real.

So when I was taking a shower, she just came talk to me out of nowhere. I told her about my problems, we talked alot. I very much aknowledged that I imagined her. After all, she didn't even open the bathroom door. She just walked in with red towel she was wearing. I asked where she got the red tower, and she just said that she took it with her, when she came to see me. She even got bit mad at me, when I just told her, that she wouldn't be real. Though she knows that too.

So after we came out of shower, I took a bit of read about schizophrenia and damn I really sure that I have it. I have had signs of it before, and looks like it's developing. Howerer this does not mean that I would become dangerous. It just means that I gonna have better life, as I have now this girl to support me. And I think I'm starting to love her.

I will report here, what's going to happen with our relationship. After all this only place I'm gonna tell about this. God bless anonymity.

Schizophrenia is so loosely defined as to be worthless as a diagnosis.  Even early studies of autism were considered forms of schizophrenia before someone with half a brain decided they were autismic instead.

Stop making up diseases and just go tell people they have cancer or something, stupid fucking doctors.