ITT: Mental illnesses

I was diagnosed with bipolar personality disorder about six months ago. Before that I had seeked help because of depression, anxiety, sleep deprivation and anger mangement issues that I have now got under control with proper medication (Lamictal and Ketipinor, Tenox for sleeping problems).

I have only told my family about this. Apparently I'm the only one from my whole familytree that has a mental disorder, wich is rare because this is supposed to be mainly a genetic illness with few exceptions.

My life sucks because of this. Everyday i think about my condition, mood and life. Everyday I am checking for signs of mania or depression and try to adjust to them. Depression seems to eat me from the inside, little voice naggging me about everything, kicking me in the head and putting me go trough all the shit I have had in my life over and over again. And when mania really kicks in I have no choice but drug myself up so that I can work normally, turn myself into a zombie so that I can atleast have somekind of control over my behaviour, animalistic urges and plain stupid ideas. Mania is a animal you can't afford to let loose, I have hurt people both mentally and physically because I haven't snapped out of it in time. The whole moment between two completely different states of mind is overwhelming.

The worst thing is that I feel so alone, trying to control myself everyday. Is any one else struggling with their mental health? Tell your story or someone elses, I don't care. I just want to know that I'm not the only one.

Izzat you, FailCream?

this one time, I was going out of my fucking mind
it was rough, man

>>3
wow man i never knew

Diagnosed with ADHD back in 3rd grade...had severe behavior problems before being medicated.  I also think I have anxiety, maybe schizophrenia and depression...I watched my mom die in front of me when I was 15 from a brain aneurysm.  My Dad was also an alcoholic growing up but has been clean since 2000. 

Took Ritalin, Concerta, and Adderall all at different times in my life.  Teachers could tell when I was off my meds...so take what you can from that statement.  Being on those meds made me a total zombie with NO PERSONALITY.  I had serious trouble making friends and sustaining relationships.

I'm a senior in college now and have been off my meds for about 6 months.  Life has improved but I'm still a total whack job.  You don't need meds to function in life.  Just play the hand you are dealt with.

I have racist personality disorder according to my Jewish psychiatrist. He's going to send me to the Rollin 21st Street Crips to learn about the noble African culture.

>>6
liar

I love you 4chan.

I was born with an freakishly large penis. That is all.

>>9
I don't see how that is a mental illness unless you sucked your cock too much and it became stuck in your brains.

I have some anxiety shit and it scares me that i will never be able to be truly happy and at ease.

I worry that I will not be able to get another job because I will freak out, or that I will get fired from this job for being too crazy.

You are not alone, I htink 90% of 4channers have these issues - we are the ones who have had it diagnosed. Consider ourselves lucky we know what is wrong with us :)

>>11
Not officially diagnosed but I can almost guarantee I have an anxiety disorder.  I just wish I could live like a normal human and be happy.  Even the smallest of things dig me into depression.

>>12
Go to a doctor - I got put on some meds that helped me a lot, but the hardest thing I think is coming off them and still remaining in that 'state'

>>13
I was on meds for ADHD for the past 14 years of my life and have recently stopped taking them...my social life has improved and school work has remained the same.

I want to stay away from medication if at all possible.  I don't like the way they mask my true self.

>>10
>>9 is a pathological liar - mental disorder