Killing myself

Tonight it is gonna happen, iam finally leaving this mortal coil.

anyone want to talk to me?

Why?

Why wait for tonight? Do it now. You sound like all those smokers saying "I'm going to quit smoking. Tomorrow." And then they keep on smoking for 50 more years.

What is it you see so worth it to kill yourself?

OP here:
iam useless, let me tell you the story
as a child, i was teased and bullied to hell. i was a small fat shy boy who didnt have friends, but got his ass kicked everyday after school. my parents took me away from this all and placed me on a different school, but here it went even worse.
after a long time, my parents took me off and placed me in a special shortbus school where kids with psychological defects go. here, i learned how to be more open and more durable against bullying, but i couldnt get my highschool diploma
now, at the age of 18 i came back to normal education, being pinned down at labourers school because i dont have any diploma's the government says i cant do higher education.
i feel trapped inside something.
i just dont want to go on anymore with my life being planned out by a higher group, with this i will never be able to become a journalist, what my true goal is.
instead, iam now learning to be a mail room penis.

go ahead but better make it epic.

>>5
Well thats you giving up...go get GED...problem solved...start at community college and work your way up. If you give up you only prove thoes bullies right.

>>7
i dont live in the states, things are different where i live

Your not useless. Never listen to what others tell you you are. Only you know what you are and what you want. Use others to get what YOU want, and fuck everything that gets in your way. Remember, the only way you truly lose is when you give up. Don't give up, nothing is so bad that its worth killing yourself. Now get up and fight, fight hard, and win. You can do it.

So fucking what. I don't have a diploma either and I'm not even ALLOWED to work (lol psychosis). So I spend my time playing the vidya and surfing 4chan. OOOOH WHAT A HORRIBLE EXISTENCE NOBODY HAS IT AS BAD AS ME LOL;_;

/emo
/wrist

LOL kill yourself.
There is no afterlife.
You'll miss out on the chance to reform yourself.
Miss out on the good and bad of life on Earth, what makes it so special
Kiss my ass

>>4
>>7
>>9
no no no no no.

>>13
bah, shut it. This is a human life we are talking about.

Now, before you kill yourself, ask yourself, is this really what you want to do? If you had to choose between death and ice cream, which would you choose? Ice cream of course!

what i'm saying is that you feel cornered. You feel like there is no other choice BUT suicide. You have to remember that life is vast and open, so you can actually do what you want as long as it involves you and not another person. But when you die, that openness ends. Think about what happens in death: your body deteriorates, meaning there is nothing there left of you. So you are no longer on this earth, or anywhere for that matter. This means that this is the only life you've got my friend. No afterlife; no angels with big breasts pouring water out of their butcrack, life just ends. Trust me, i've actually tried to commit suicide twice, and the second time I felt it, and it wasn't darkness or anything like that. I just ended. Luckily it was just a concussion (I banged my head on a dresser as hard as I could...) but it showed me that life is a gift that you can't waste or whine about. This goes for that other whiny poster talking about Russians or some shit: life is yours to use or to waste. But people have their own lives, and they will eventually die too, so why worry or care what they think?

Stop this foolishness and go get some ice cream.

hey are there any sites on the internet that show people killing themselves?

>>15
look for the R.Budd Dwyer video... easy to find   also Kevin Whitrick (shyboy_17_1) only happened last year - havent seen the video but the picture of him hanging with the other chatroom users reactions, and there was some other guy a year earlier that did a chatroom suicide by ODing. Bonus points if you find the Christine Chubbock video

>>16
thanks alot dude...Wow...that R. Budd  Dwyer one was freaken A!

>>1
Someone out there is having a much worse day than you.

Found the R. Budd Dwyer vid.

http://www.vidilife.com/index.cfm?f=media.play&vchrMediaProgramIDCryp=3AFF39F3-9C1B-4288-806E-D

>>18
Yeah and that just makes me feel WORSE as it would for anybody with any empathy.

>>17
Aye... also look for Faces of Death I-IV   Traces of death I-IV   Facez of Death 2000 I-IV (first one is awesome.. gangland / mafia hits etc) and Faces of gore I-II  and another one just called Executions - most of these are on http://horrorflix.ws/articles.php?cat_id=1 and contain footage of people either dying in stunts / executions or just the grisley gorey aftermath. Faces of death I is the original of these shockumentaries (1978) and is quite informative and less gorey than later versions, while newer versions like traces of death is generally violent footage (riots etc) with death metal playing in the background. Don't bother downloading part V or VI of any of them as they are just 'best of' compilations of the earlier videos with no new material. Anything not on this site can still be found on rapidshare, but make sure to look for ones with at least 5 or 6 parts, as there are some smaller rips which are basically unwatchable due to poor quality. Good luck finding them, theres a lot of cool footage to see!

Oh yeah, and I think its Facez 2000 III that has the budd dwyer video near the end.

are you dead yet?

>>23
yep

>>23
your face is probably what killeded him you fuckwitt

Did anyone actually find >>21 useful? Or does everyone here already have/know about those films?

i wonder if OP killed himself or not

>>27
see
>>24

This is why american schools suck balls hard. Move to better country, where you can get that kind of education you need. Of course, you have to learn some language first. But hey, it's always better than suicide. Unless you are a lazy fag.

I like the idea of threads living on, after their OPers have long since cut on themselves until they bled out into their bathtubs.

God I love it when OP cuts himself

>>30
I like the idea of 4chan living on without your homosexual presence

>>32
???  Since I'm not homosexual, 4chan lives on in such a state now.  You need to get your facts straight.  Now do a barrel roll.

>>33
!!! Since you are homosexual, 4chan is in a state of temporary faggotry. It can only be fixed with the sacrifice of the sites amateur sodomite (you) to our lord moot