just broke up feel suicidal please help

i broke up with my girlfriend in uk after a one year relationship. i am in the usa and we had everything planned, marriage, kids, career, places we will see together. although it was a long distance relationship i stayed committed all along. she did too for a long time. but suddenly last december i got this call from a girl in uk saying that she has been seeing my girlfriend for a while now. when i confronted her, she agreed, apologised profusely, and tried to make amends to the best of her abilities. yet although i forgave her, i felt this permanent pain that she lied, cheated, when all i did was wait for her patiently. i truly loved her ad we had the most perfect chemistry which is why i am suffering so much now. i even got a great job in uk and decided to move-in with her. but i couldn't finally because the hurt was so much that i felt that i would spoil things for her if i continue without forgetting and forgiving completely. so finally i called it quits. ever since i decided to let go, i m hurting tremendously. i feel suicidal and dont know what to do. please help.

go kill yourself

Do it right this time.

call the suicide hotline, they'll talk you out of it better than us. we want you to die.

Become an hero

What so your girfriend isn't allowed to have friends?  What the fuck is wrong with you?

Go to
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>>6
it was her lover, she's bisexual. that just makes it worse..

wait... are YOU >>1 two lesbians?

Lesbians can't fuck around on each other, that makes no sense

>>1
are you a guy or girl?
or is >>8 right about her being a bi?
gender is very important here...

>>11
guy, im op and >>8

>>12
wow you have BOTH sexes to worry about her cheating on
that's worse

>>12
that's worse cause you have both sexes to worry about her cheating on you with....
that's another 5 billion people

Wait wait wait this is not a problem.  If you are a guy, then now you have two chicks to enjoy.

hi im tricia, i just wanna share my experience.. i dont know how to start!
uhmm.. i hope no one will misjudge me here i just wanna let this feeling out of me!
they say love is like paradise..its beautiful.. they say its sweet...specially when youre in love with the right guy in the right time..but why is this happening to me!i love someone but i didnt feel its beautiful and sweet,..in fact i am feeling guilt..wanna know why?
cause is my cousin..first cousin!!thats why i feel angry with myself if i dont let him be a big thing in my life i will not suffer like this i wanna be with him always!but i cant..our family keep us apart..we see each other some times but its not enough i want to hug him and tell him what i really feel but i know it will make the situation more complicated.im in college now i dont want to dissapoint my auntie who were paying my tuition fee.im ashamed of myself of what i feel..
thats all pls help me i need a friend to lean on!!thanksss

>>16
Tricia,

Your guilt comes from mass consciousness and the beliefs we have been programmed with through out lifetimes. I don't know your beliefs and that isn't important here. What I do know to be true is LOVE is LOVE no matter who it is.

I think as we go through this awakening on this planet now, it can become more confusing. I think people confuse love with romance or even having to be a couple.

You most likely have a deep soul connection with this cousin and you are feeling the beauty of it and the guilt is polluting it.

I understand the family wanting to prevent this and old belief systems. I have a cousin who I didn't grow up with but we have always had a connection. I know that we aren't meant to be together in that way but I love him and I feel this connection on a deep level.

As souls we are neither male or female and we are just energy/essence so if you connect with someone on a soul level it was meant to happen. What you do with it is for your own discernment. Just don't allow others to tell you what is best for your journey. Use discernment in what this feeling you have means because it can be extremely intense and yet it doesn't mean you are to come together as a couple. So maybe you can hold him in a special place and allow the connection but not necessarily have to take it to a level of being a couple unless you both choose that.

Love never goes away. That's the illusion. When we love and are connected to someone, the connection never goes away. It is always with us in our heart. However, I understand how it is better to have them physically in our lives.

I have never posted here but felt your post calling to me. ;)

It sucks man..
But think, if she REALLY did all that..
Then she wasnt the one for you :)