i don't really have any friends

i hang out with people but i don't feel like they're proper friends - there isn't anyone i know that i regularly make plans to do stuff every week or just talk on the phone with. it's always the occasional party, get together or movies but i don't really have a close bond with these people.

for the better part of my life i've always felt an existential lonliness even when i'm engaged in social activities around other people because i've never felt that there was someone i could truly be honest about things like my problems, and not trivial ones. for one year i was close friends with someone but we've moved apart. there probably isn't any solution to this, after all, man is a lonely creature, and i've pretty much accepted this.. but it would be nice if there were people who know what im talkin about!

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>>i've met so many people with a take-it-or-leave-it attitude; if you're there you'll get along fine but they won't bother organising things or getting in touch unless you do it.

I'm like that a lot I guess. Or I used to be. I had some of the greatest friends anyone could want, but gave them up for something stupid like online games and the Internet in general. These days I don't have my friends anymore. What I gave them up for? Nothing that I care about anymore. That must sound pretty stupid, but I know I'm not the only one like that. Never hide stuff from your friends. Let them in on what you do and they might even enjoy it and partake in it with you. Instead of keeping everything to yourself and doing something you'll regret later. This isn't a pitty party or anything though. I'll admit that I deserve to be friendless now.