i don't really have any friends

i hang out with people but i don't feel like they're proper friends - there isn't anyone i know that i regularly make plans to do stuff every week or just talk on the phone with. it's always the occasional party, get together or movies but i don't really have a close bond with these people.

for the better part of my life i've always felt an existential lonliness even when i'm engaged in social activities around other people because i've never felt that there was someone i could truly be honest about things like my problems, and not trivial ones. for one year i was close friends with someone but we've moved apart. there probably isn't any solution to this, after all, man is a lonely creature, and i've pretty much accepted this.. but it would be nice if there were people who know what im talkin about!

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of course not having a friend is not a good thing.  you're absolutely right about having the 'right' friends- the only problem is that they are very hard to find. the right friend is someone who's willing to put as much effort in the friendship, is as much interested in discussing common topics, values your company.. i've met so many people with a take-it-or-leave-it attitude; if you're there you'll get along fine but they won't bother organising things or getting in touch unless you do it.