i don't really have any friends

i hang out with people but i don't feel like they're proper friends - there isn't anyone i know that i regularly make plans to do stuff every week or just talk on the phone with. it's always the occasional party, get together or movies but i don't really have a close bond with these people.

for the better part of my life i've always felt an existential lonliness even when i'm engaged in social activities around other people because i've never felt that there was someone i could truly be honest about things like my problems, and not trivial ones. for one year i was close friends with someone but we've moved apart. there probably isn't any solution to this, after all, man is a lonely creature, and i've pretty much accepted this.. but it would be nice if there were people who know what im talkin about!

No one around here likes computers much at all. It's a pretty stuck-up place full of jock types, goody-goodies, or hardcore pot smoking hippies. I was browsing 4chan and watching anime for a lot of my life, but pretty much no one else shares my interests. All the stuff I loved when I was a kid now is pretty commonplace.. Everyone has a computer with the Internet now. Everyone knows what anime is. More than half the stuff my little sister watches on kids TV is anime these days.. Castle in the sky, Spirited away, pokemon, etc etc etc. It's all over the place now. Tons of people play computer games like WoW.

Too bad I'm too lazy to go out and meet any of them. My old friends didn't do any of the stuff I did.. They mostly hung out, went to parties, and smoked weed. Our only things in common were the bands we liked.

It isn't really about having "friends" it's about having the "right" friends. A good friend is something you'll never replace with anything. Don't ever think not having a friend is a good thing. You'll just end up nice and lonely.