I'm you average scene girl. I can be your best friend or your worst enemy. I'm way beyond normal. I wear clothes most people wouldn't even walk around in there own backyard in. I contemplate the meaning of life way too much. I'm teaching myself to play guitar and I write songs. My hair has been almost every color of the rainbow in the past year. I love rainbows. I love Eeyore, Hello Kitty, Invader Zim and other little kid things like that. I wear bright make up. I love skinny jeans. I have a lot of hoodies and sneakers. I scream out random words like "shoom" or "rawr". I'm not a copy, I'm an original. I'm not the type of girl who tries to get the same stuff as Joe Jonas or dress like Miley Cyrus, but more of the type of girl who will be noticed for starting her own thing rather than becoming a follower of a fad that will eventually die out. I'm not like the other girls who would willing spend $50 on a shirt from Abercrombie. I'm the type of girl who goes to the clearance rack at Hot Topic and can still look good in a shirt that I spent $10 on rather than $50. I'm the type of girl that keeps her mind set on a goal and won't let others hold her down. I won't let someone destroy my dreams just because they don't want me to fulfill them. I am who I am. That should be enough for you.
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VIPPER2009-03-02 4:44
what is skinny jeans? Are Americans so fat that jeans for people that aren't fat ass are called skinny?
You never really went steady, but you'd run into her from time to
time while knocking around in disreputable joints, usually late at
night, every several months or so. She looked so hot, so sleek, so
sexy, so expressive, so exotic. You'd end up back at her place and
the night would just... take off. A complete blur of hot, sweaty,
feverish, delirious, fumbling passion. You'd do things to each
other... you'd do things to her, she'd do things to you... things
that you're not even sure have names, that you're pretty sure are
illegal almost anywhere. Even her kinks have kinks --- and after one
of these nights, you'd realize that you yourself had a lot more kinks
than you. And it wasn't just physical, it was --- cerebral.
Ethereal. Transcendent. But it would all whiz by in a blur, and by
morning you'd find yourself lightheaded, a bit confused, and
stumbling homeward to your regular gal.
Over the next few days and weeks you'd find yourself occasionally
drifting away, thinking about her. Haskell. You'd be there, banging
away at your regular girl, and find yourself thinking "you know, if I
was with Haskell, I'd be doing this completely differently." You'd
think "I could be doing so much bigger and better stuff with
Haskell." Now, your regular girl, she's not as exotic as Haskell.
Pretty, maybe, if you're lucky. (Perhaps your regular girlfriend's
name is Python. ;-) But not nearly as --- weird. Wild. Cool.
Exciting. Don't get me wrong --- your girl, she's wonderful. You've
got a wonderful relationship. She's --- comfortable. You can bang
away at her all day and night. She's accommodating. Easy going.
You work well together. But --- confidentially --- she's, well,
maybe just a little bit boring. You'd catch yourself thinking these
things, and the guilty pangs would get to you... You'd quash the
thoughts, buckle down, and get back to banging away. Comfortable...
there's a lot to be said for that, ya know? Comfortable... just
keep telling yourself that.
Months would go by. Late some night you'd find yourself out,
disreputable places again. Maybe that hacker bar, LtU. Somebody'd
slip you an URL for some renegade paper, you know, one of *those*
papers. You'd run into Haskell again. And the whole thing starts over.
Eventually, you're going to get the ultimatum. Haskell's ultimately
just like any other girl on some level; she needs commitment.
Eventually, after one night of wild, feverish, kinky, abstract
passion, she's going to say to you: "All these times, and you don't
understand me at all! You know, you're going to have to get serious,
mister! I've got needs, too. You're going to have to get serious
about my monads, or that's the last time you're going to play with
them! Got it?"
...and then, you've got to make The Choice.
Chances are, you're going to go back to your regular gal. Haskell's
just too much for any one man, probably. She leaves a trail of
broken, brainy, embittered PhDs and former programmers behind her.
She ruins you for the RealWorld. You can ride a while, but you
probably can't go the distance with her. Go back to your regular gal
and try not to think too much about what you've seen. Done. Felt.
Thought.
Maybe you can salvage a little happiness; but it'll be hard. After
all... you've tasted Haskell.