A year ago the world was mad at me, and I was mad at it, because I coudln't express my emotions. I was totally focused on keeping emotional pain well away from any part of myself that could feel it.
All this sounds like some stupid teen angst post, about how 'no one understands the real me', I don't think that's true. I think that almost everyone has done what I'm doing now - lay in bed, kept awake by feelings of fear or confusion, and looked for a way to reach out and express the feelings inside. I think all we want to do is reach out and really feel like someone is listening, actually understanding what we feel. The hardest thing to do is work all the feeling out all alone. This is where I failed.
For me, the emotions felt overwhemling and unexpressable. They wern't. I went through two periods of drinking at least 3 times a week, and at least once a week heavily. I got into fights. I took risks. I put myself in a hospital. I've even done things that I still can't talk about.
Long and painful story short, my life found me the next morning hugging my knees on the cold floor of the common room, by the refridgerator. All the bad feelings I had been hiding from the past 5 years caught up to me. I was so afriad that I felt I had only 2 options: run as far away as you can, or end the pain. I actually started to pack to leave. My friends got me help. I've been in therapy for 4 months now.
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VIPPER2006-02-28 19:07
My little sister is 14 years old, and I have not seen her for over 7 years. I got kicked out of the house when I was 16 (for you math wizards out there that makes me 23) because my mother is a twat. Well just recently my little sister found me over the internet and has been chatting with me on AIM. Alarmingly she has slowly started to hit on me after 3 months of useless general chatting. I showed my wife the logs because it was of some concern. My wife too agreed that she was flirting with me and that I should becareful of what I now said around her. Now here is the main problem /b/ she just hopped on AIM this morning and flat out told me she masterbated whilst thinking about me. I quickly closed the chat and logged off AIM and now she is texting my phone asking where I went and that she wanted to talk. Some of you may not see this as a problem and will throw the usual "stick it in her pooper" "bix nood" maybe a few "copypasta" or a smathering of "surprise buttsecks" but this is a real problem for me. I don't need a little sister in this world getting fucked in the head because she has some sort of crush on her older brother. Please /b/ I am in need of your infinite wisdom and efforts!
PS. Pic unrelated... Maybe?
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VIPPER2006-02-28 19:08
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VIPPER2006-02-28 19:09
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