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You're not supposed to know why before you use what you are learning, you're supposed to find out why after you apply it.
That feeling of "don't know why" is the appropriate sense for the situation you are in at the current place and time. But that you know that you feel you "don't know why" is what makes you self-aware and you can use that to your advantage and persevere to find out why later on.
Having to know why before you do anything is a defense mechanism to distract you from doing what you have trained yourself to do. To wake up in the morning on time, to brush your teeth and take care of hygiene, to dress for the occasion, etc, etc. The answer to why you do what you are doing is given to you after you've done it, not before.
Of course, you'd actually have to live it in order to know the difference between the perception post-action as opposed to the preconception pre-action. There is a difference between preconception and perception; do you know what those 'tells' are for each to distinguish either from the other?
If you want a reason pre-action in order to adequately perform the action within looking for reason during the action; because there is no reason yet is the reason to perform the action.
Once the action has taken place, the reason "there is no reason yet" becomes replaced by "the reason is ___________."
The human mind always wants to fill in gaps of knowledge with something...so fill it with the necessity to go find out for yourself. If you want, instead of choosing either preconception or perception; why not use both? Come up with preconception and use that to your advantage to pursue perceptions. Find out if what you know is accurate or if it needs to be replaced by new information. The human mind may be all great and useful, but as for what it does know at any given point in time, it's pretty limited...knowing your limitations provides you the ability to overcome them and seek and know your other limitations. Remember, what you are learning isn't just the physical world, you are also learning about who you are and what you are capable of doing...not just by preconceiving reason, but by living them as well.
We are human...we are intentionally designed the way we are to make mistakes in judgment because we are fallible by nature and knowing this limitation is what gives us the advantage over it. To deny this is arrogance of the suicidal persuasion. It's alright for a preconceived notion to not be used anymore if something better and more useful comes along. But without finding out for YOUR CERTAINTY that what you are looking at IS TRULY "better" and "more useful", you'll be living in a state of conflict between the duality of preconception and perception. You will feel shame, inadequacy, awkwardness, doubt, and possibly even depression as a result. So...if you do feel these things right now, you may want to observe your preconceptions and weigh them against your perceptions. If you can differentiate the two, that is.
I wish you luck.
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