Interesting behavior from universe

First of all, don't act like you know everything and question my intelligence after i ask. I asked to the professor and even he couldn't really answered me.
You know how matter was in the beginning, that is of course if you accept big bang. All matter existed in isolation, in elementary particle form ( at least for a while) and then proton and electron coming together formed atoms. My question is why? The only fundamental forces between these pair is electrostatic attraction and gravitational attraction. They should have  normally just made a head and collision and annihilate into a neutron. Atomic state is absurdly weird, electrons supposedly spinning around protons? You may claim neutron is more energetic than an atom but clearly not as it is present in atomic nucleus too. I just want speculation, not copied texts from your textbooks

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There is at least one way to set aside logic (to see things as they are) and that is to deceive yourself. Tell yourself that something is there when it is observably not. After a while, you will begin to see evidence of the possibility that it may be true and this will reinforce your self-deception. Also, there is introversion on past events or future possibilities, then there is looking for escape routes anytime something is painful or safety when something is fearful. These things take you out of present-moment awareness and place it in the back ground. All of this leads to one immutable and logical conclusion; it makes you ignorant to the present moments and you will not see anything as it is you will only see things through the veneer of your own self-doubt and you will accuse people of, basically, "being you" in that they commit the same transgressions. So yes, there are ways to see things illogically; however, I have 29+ years experience in this so logic is my new field of study and I am using all I can to practice it diligently. OCD [Obsessive Compulsive Disorder](perfection stemming from Super Ego) comes in handy this way.
"Repetition breeds excellence." Why people think they can try and hide their habits is beyond me; just another self-deception.