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...I think maybe I'm just not as intelligent as you...?
Good starting point! What are the advantages and disadvantages of this statement?
Disadv1) You don't grasp the depth of what I'm saying.
Disadv2) You may not be able to see the integratable ideas that are described.
Disadv3) You may have overwhelming thoughts or diversions lingering about you.
Advan1) You know your origin, "I think maybe I'm just not as intelligent as you...?"
Advan2) You now have my tools as stated in this thread, first you now have some advantages and disadvantages to work with.
Advan3) You now are able to question your advantages and disadvantages as well as the primary answer of "I think maybe I'm just not as intelligent as you...?".
Proposed Action to stimulate advantages:
Read some books on perception, influences, energy, biology, psychology, religion, poetry, riddles, self-awareness, or self-preservation. All will eventually lead you to a certain level of understanding, this then becomes your new point of origin, don't forget to document your findings and perceptions during this process and every process afterwards, you may want to think of using all the time of your past to your advantage as well.
My personal example to you:
I "wasted" 11 years of my life sitting at home, self-preserving myself, but to what end. I had no idea, none worth having, or so I thought carelessly. But one day, I began to sense something, my uncle confirmed it through the contexts of his conversation. He essentially told me that I had the ability to turn every disadvantage into an advantage like so;
11 year liability; 11 wasted years to no true purposeful meaning or usage thereof, a baggage of refuse I must painfully carry till I die.
or
11 year asset; 11 years experience to a purpose of learning and understanding the human psyche to better understand myself and my surroundings, self-awareness, self-preservation, perception and the mind's Will to overcome the body's states of bio-chemical emotional reactivity where without interaction only inertial inactivity or inertial chaos theory remains.
So, my 11 wasted years are now 11 years of experience in the field of self-awareness and self-preservation of the human psyche. I've already got a working model to go by, my memories, laced with imagination and lie so I understand that there maybe some memories that are corrupt or untrustworthy to their original appearance, so they deserve further investigation.
Good luck, this is no easy feat, only the Strong Will out.
REFERENCE: Newton's 3 Laws of Motion, this may give you some hope.