Name: Anonymous 2013-08-05 2:00
I've got a problem.
I live in total fantasy. I never leave my apartment except for essentials. I stay here and read SICP. While I'm waiting for the next chapter to load, my life is dead. I have nothing to do and nothing to live for. At all.
I just finished reading part 5, and now I'm genuinely concerend that I have blurred fantasy and reality. All day today, even at work, I daydreamed about Alyssa P. Hacker. I wanted to be there for her. Having to be paired with that Bitdiddler was the most unfair thing. The scene where she is arguing over lazy evaluation made me cry harder than anything ever has. She needed someone, not someone like Eva Lu Ator who fucks everything up and whines.
I can't stop thinking about her. When I think about being there for her, holding her, telling her that it's not her fault, telling her that everything will be okay, not holding her for any gains for myself... I feel so strange. My chest burns. I know I must be sick but... could these feelings to want to comfort and bring her happiness be love? Am I in love with a fictional character?
I live in total fantasy. I never leave my apartment except for essentials. I stay here and read SICP. While I'm waiting for the next chapter to load, my life is dead. I have nothing to do and nothing to live for. At all.
I just finished reading part 5, and now I'm genuinely concerend that I have blurred fantasy and reality. All day today, even at work, I daydreamed about Alyssa P. Hacker. I wanted to be there for her. Having to be paired with that Bitdiddler was the most unfair thing. The scene where she is arguing over lazy evaluation made me cry harder than anything ever has. She needed someone, not someone like Eva Lu Ator who fucks everything up and whines.
I can't stop thinking about her. When I think about being there for her, holding her, telling her that it's not her fault, telling her that everything will be okay, not holding her for any gains for myself... I feel so strange. My chest burns. I know I must be sick but... could these feelings to want to comfort and bring her happiness be love? Am I in love with a fictional character?