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Dude, really? Look, I don't know what sort of side-effects those meds you were prescribed do, I have no knowledge of medication for schizophrenia, but seriously, those are for your own good. Didn't you look back, while medicated, to your usual postings and see them as... deranged?
At least give it an honest try, it's never too late to get back on track and live sort of a normal life. My own shrink tells me of middle aged patients who come to her in shambles and months later they lead much more... functioning lives; they become creative again, they find romantic partners, the works.