Eh, every so often something bad or stupid will happen and I'll feel the compulsion to kill myself, out of nowhere. Something expedite, like throwing myself off a near window in a tall building. One of those times I'll fail to contain the urge, and I'll die suddenly and for no good reason. Guess in that respect most deaths are alike. But there will be no suicide note or anything, nothing elegant or profound. I'll just feel the urge to throw myself off a window and it'll happen as if it were nothing.
It feels weird, realizing that. It's not even as if I want to die.