>>5
I've always been bummed about my life from lack of a social life (around 13 years old when I moved to a new town). They made fun of me because I was brown and this was around 9/11.
I think it started to sink in after I graduated college and working at a lab doing generic engineering work with a retarded manager. I would like to program, but I feel like a mental midget. I like programming in C, but it seems like in order to succeed in this programming language I would be forced to really learn libraries that would make me hate programming (windows api or one of the many bad network protocol libraries.)
There seems for no way to be happy.