ohhh no am I having a heart attack

I think so

if I could just cut my ribcage and blood vessels open I could alleviate the blockage

and to make matters even worse, my lungs are shattering

oh shit I forgot to take my antipsychotic meds today

now I can't tell if what I'm experiencing is real or delusion

perhaps it's me just panicking, or maybe it's real

it's like the story of the boy who cried wolf

nobody believes you after a while, even if it's true

they simply dismiss you as a liar no matter what, just because of your prior track record

oh god oh god oh god oh no what should I do it takes a couple hours for my medications to take effect so even if I take them right now nothing will happen for a considerable amount of time oh no I am dying

I want to cut my chest open to stop the heart attack but that would probably kill me and make no sense because I am not a surgeon and it's not as if cutting my chest open would do anything but at the same time I kind of want to do it because for some illogical reason I think it would help, or maybe it's just that I want to

at least it would distract me from this very slow heart attack

or maybe it's not a heart attack... maybe this sensation I'm experiencing is maggots crawling through my body

but fortunately I don't have any large knifes or painkillers so performing surgery on myself is not an option.. at least not today, anyway

oh god I just want to die, this is too crazy

but at the same time, I fear death

or perhaps I just fear the act of dying, not death itself

there is a difference, after all

my laptop is cooking me alive

meanwhile, thumb tacks are being driven into my skin

tiny bugs are laying their eggs in my rotting flesh

I am dying, but far from death

a cruel fate indeed

my flexing ribcage has started to splinter

tiny, sharp rib pieces pierce my lungs

they cry out for help, in agonizing pain

but no one hears them, because they are lungs, not people

hahahahahahaha

;_;

help me

Another victim of the Jewish plot of Daylight Saving Time.

I am going to take like 10x the normal amount of xanax I take, because this is just too crazy and scary

I need to relax

if I don't die first, that is

help me... please, help me
I'm confused and scared and alone and I can't tell what's real and what's my mind playing tricks on me
it is really frightening when you can no loner differentiate between reality and fantasy
I can't trust my own sense anymore, and that is really scary

no longer*

no boner*

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