Help Me Stop Wasting My Life

>like programming
>wish I didn't live with parents
>wish I had job to get by with while I study programming on the side
>hate university
>currently stuck in university lecture, posting from there, these fucking lectures ruin my sleep and I don't remember anything from them; they are utterly worthless and actually damaging to me because I have severe insomnia but the main problem is falling asleep not staying asleep, when I'm forced awake though my eyes burn and I'm tired as fuck and still can't sleep again for quite some time
>virgin, no girlfriend, only know shit toy languages so far, unable to pursue programming dreams, unemployed

wat do.

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There's not much I can do here though. My dad is a huge shabbos goy and my mom isn't much better. I have to hide my feelings about race as long as I am around them and any hint at intolerance is met with anti-white hostility. Also the demographics are changing rapidly in this region and we're all being replaced by massive hoards of Mongoloids; I'm one of the few whites I've seen at the lectures I've attended and what was once almost all whites of German descent with a minority of other types of whites is all be swamped in dievershitty.

I feel it is best I withdraw from this place, maybe I could go out and chalk things on the ground but that can really get me fucked over. Once I saw the WPWW cross sprayed on a silo but beyond that I don't have much hope and they drove out a group of Nazis awhile ago who then fled to the NWF coast. They teach about in the classes in highschools and most don't see anything wrong with it even though it's a huge violation of their freedom of speech and besides hanging up a flag with the swastika at their home, they didn't actually create any problems for anyone.

It sickens me how many white race traitors they are; truly the worst enemy is found within. What kind of sick degenerate intentionally sabotages people who advocate on your behalf? "Oh, please give away all the power, blend us out of existence, I want to see my people die ouuut, remember the 6 trillion of an ethnic group that isn't my own, we are such horrible monsters!" Wtf goes on in their minds exactly... maybe I don't want to know.

This place is lost anyways, and I think I should get out soon. Maybe one day I will return with a band of fellow proud white warriors and we will raid the ruins of this city killing race traitors and savage non-whites who fight each other already when the system (ZOG) they depend on suddenly can't support so many goys anymore.