>>4
ditto?
but there is no parasite, just your imagination (and it's probably cramping up since it never gets exercised ^^ watching movies doesn't count / reading books might a bit)
Panic is useful in proper '5 sec or less to live' situations/etc... the rest of the time probably not so much ..
Despair ?
Despair is like having no light at the end of the tunnel, whether it's not there or you just can't see it yet, just keep your eyes open anyway =)
take it easy OP