Capitalism vs. Socialism

Hi, I'm a college freshman, and therefore an idiot.
I like the idea of socialism, but I hate large government and government control. I like the idea of capitalism, but it causes the rich to get richer and for global marketers to crush smaller businesses; plus I don't want to be lumped in with all those social darwinist Objectivist douchebags.

What should I do? Books I should read to sway me more towards one opinion or the other?

>I don't want to be lumped in with all those social darwinist Objectivist douchebags.

destined for failure, don't weigh yourself down caring for people you don't know.