Head zaps or something

Hey I have this problem. The last couple of years I did some pretty bad things. Like fucking with a (18-) niece of my girlfriend, stealing money and medicines from my sick mother, fucking some investors over, so I could just do whatever I want. Etc. It just goes on.

I used to have no problems with this shit, but now I have some kind of brain zaps. It is like, I feel everything what went wrong or what I did wrong compressed in a 20 minutes. I just have to think about things and almost see them. It is almost visual. This happens especially in the morning. It almost hurts.

WTF is this shit? How do I make it go away? Is this normal?

Oh joy, I probably have fucked myself up. I choose the psychologist. Thanks for the pointer.