I'm thinking about killing myself soon

Reasons to do so:
1. I'm 22 and live with my mom.
2. I don't have ASSBURGERS but struggle with an excessive ego which hampers my socio-economic success.
3. Though not bi-polar, I exhibit symptoms of this and schizophrenia which leads to a crippling experience of reality.
4. I'm addicted to pornography.
5. I'm also addicted to math and science, yet pursue my fascination with sexuality far more than either of these. Therefore I don't learn very much.
6. Every day is more depressing than the last.
7. I dropped out of high school and have yet to attend college, even once.
8. I am a dreamer. Life-as-being does not interest me. Only distant realities experienced through unchanging mediums such as novels and music help me to feel alive.
9. I undergo a very restricted range of emotional response. Sadness, anger and slight amusement color the palette of my world.

If there are any additional reasons you believe I am a good candidate for just extermination, or are yourself contemplating committing the act upon yourself, please say so. Otherwise troll away.

Also, disregard that. I suck cocks.

I apologize.

My continued efforts are futile. I have tried to find meaning in this petty existence of mine since childhood, but I have since failed. I am driven by very childish ambitions to design a technology that will not become feasible for several more centuries. People seem to believe I'm insane after I describe my ambitions to them, regardless of context.

I have tried to be content with maintaining a life of mediocrity, but it is simply not possible. I am cared for by no one and I am in no way special or significant to humanity nor is humanity in any way special or significant to the universe. Our entire galaxy could vanish from existence and the universe would be indifferent.

Regardless of how subjectively successful I may become, death inevitably awaits. I am no longer capable of living with that burden and I refuse to become part of the cyclic lifestyle that all people must embrace.

These biological vessels must be improved upon. It will not happen in my life time, but I sincerely hope that someone possesses the creativity to design an entirely new system that transcends DNA in the future, with the ultimate goal of deciphering the universe. This was my dream, but it's over.

Farewell.