I am a loser and nobody likes me?

I am probably the biggest nobody in my school. I try to fit in to this group, but they hate me. all they do is make fun of me and my Halo games.

Im 13 now and I've had a crush on the same boy since 4th grade. he barely knows i exist and no-one knows i'm gay, almost every weekend i hear everyone talking about how excited they are for some party.

I've never been to a party.I'm a huge outcast. what should i do????

SFBE.

>>28-cloan, no, you are the cloan.  You.

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