I am a loser and nobody likes me?

I am probably the biggest nobody in my school. I try to fit in to this group, but they hate me. all they do is make fun of me and my Halo games.

Im 13 now and I've had a crush on the same boy since 4th grade. he barely knows i exist and no-one knows i'm gay, almost every weekend i hear everyone talking about how excited they are for some party.

I've never been to a party.I'm a huge outcast. what should i do????

SFBE.

Consider a few dressing and grooming tips.  Are you a grown man who does not play sports for a living?

Then socks should be calf-length or above. Make sure they match not only what you are wearing, but also each other. A quick glance in good light before heading out the door can save embarrassment later in the day. Check for holes as well if you'll be going through airport security and removing your shoes.

Shoes should without question be reserved, clean, and well polished. Lace-up shoes are the choice over slip-ons or thongs. Don't think for a minute that people don't notice shoes. Many people will look at your feet, crotch, or butthole before your face.