The first part of your poasting is really too personal. I can not respond, particularly since war with Futuristipastica now exists.
The second part of your poasting makes no sense. Why would I have a preference for penises, since all penises are sensibly repulsive as I am a heterosexual male with zero homosexual tendencies?
The third part of your poasting makes even less than zero sense. What decision? And why was it wrong? And at who's birth was such a decision wrongly made?