Name: Anonymous 2011-07-06 5:50
Ask a guy planning (serious) an hero on birthday anything.
It's my birthday in 26 days.. I'll be 17.. anyway, it seemed as appropriate time as any to an hero. Especially since I know I won't be getting any birthday well wishes or that kind of shit so I'll be God mode depressed at least. This isn't your run of the mill cry for attention an hero shit.. I'm just bored of living, I can't be bothered having to consciously live through each and every day feeling like this.
There hasn't been a single big event that's brought this on, more just a culmination of a terrible year, and realising that my life will always be a constant source of disappointment, regret and wasted potential. I know every person who comes here thinks they are some kind of unique snowflake but I genuinely do think I'm different, and in a bad way. I can't keep friends for shit, I make them fairly easily but I lose them without even thinking about it. I wish I could fall in love with someone or 'feel' anything at all, instead I just view women as shallow and manipulative and incapable of feeling anything. Even having sex with them is crap because it's viewed as some kind of mortal sin to finish before them, and they most likely starfish it out. I have stupid social anxieties whenever I'm in a place with a lot of people I don't know, I am paranoid as hell, I've felt like this for 6 years and I've kept it hidden all the time and I've just literally lost the will to live now.
This is not a baww thread or any of that whining 'forever alone' shit, I hate that.. I really do. help give me a good send off, I want to die in some kind of spectacular way to make people take notice. I'd prefer it as instant and painless as possible for obvious reasons.. so what've you got /b/? Questions, tips, trolls.. go!
Will deliver, stay tuned nearer the time.
Pic related.. it's me. Yes, really.
It's my birthday in 26 days.. I'll be 17.. anyway, it seemed as appropriate time as any to an hero. Especially since I know I won't be getting any birthday well wishes or that kind of shit so I'll be God mode depressed at least. This isn't your run of the mill cry for attention an hero shit.. I'm just bored of living, I can't be bothered having to consciously live through each and every day feeling like this.
There hasn't been a single big event that's brought this on, more just a culmination of a terrible year, and realising that my life will always be a constant source of disappointment, regret and wasted potential. I know every person who comes here thinks they are some kind of unique snowflake but I genuinely do think I'm different, and in a bad way. I can't keep friends for shit, I make them fairly easily but I lose them without even thinking about it. I wish I could fall in love with someone or 'feel' anything at all, instead I just view women as shallow and manipulative and incapable of feeling anything. Even having sex with them is crap because it's viewed as some kind of mortal sin to finish before them, and they most likely starfish it out. I have stupid social anxieties whenever I'm in a place with a lot of people I don't know, I am paranoid as hell, I've felt like this for 6 years and I've kept it hidden all the time and I've just literally lost the will to live now.
This is not a baww thread or any of that whining 'forever alone' shit, I hate that.. I really do. help give me a good send off, I want to die in some kind of spectacular way to make people take notice. I'd prefer it as instant and painless as possible for obvious reasons.. so what've you got /b/? Questions, tips, trolls.. go!
Will deliver, stay tuned nearer the time.
Pic related.. it's me. Yes, really.