Some thoughts

For example, thinking about an average looking girl and an average looking dude. Say they're only 19 cause that's how old I am. The girl is a waitress, takes night classes, likes to stay in shape, and even reads books from time to time. Shes not a bitch or anything, shes just a normal girl. The dude enjoys watching sports. Hes a full time college student. Hes not a jerk or an asshole, but he sure as hell doesn't take shit. He's a pretty normal dude. This girl's not a whore, and this dude is no way in hell bagging random chicks every night, but FOR WHATEVER FUCKING REASON they get kisses from time to time, and they even get to have sex every once in while, and the best part is they live their every day lives not craving for someone to cuddle with, not craving the thought of soft lips, and not wondering and worrying how they're going to keep explaining to their friends why they haven't gotten a girlfriend yet, EVERY FUCKING DAY OF THEIR LIFE. And i do think about cuddling with someone every day. And i do usually not think about anything other than the shitty situation I'm in every single day, 24 hours a day. AND IT MAKES ME FUCKING SICK!!! And its been like this since 6th grade that I, and I'm sure many of you, have had these painful cravings that are never satisfied. There's no way in hell that I'm gonna move into my 20's living like this. I don't want to find happiness elsewhere. We're all animals and the only point in life is to have sex and kisses. Not even sex with random girls. One girl is fine if that's the way it has to be. Just one girl is all I need. That's what true happiness is to me. And I cant wait to die if it doesn't happen soon and leave this nightmare world. And fuck prostitutes. Fuck explaining to people I lost my virginity to a prostitute. Fuck that shit.

The thought of everyone else performing their biological mission (human contact and intimacy) and me not; truly depresses and sickens me. I feel like a total reject in life. To not even know what intimacy feels like, at my age, is just pathetic. To not know what it's like to be cared about and wanted. It's not just the sex for me. I want someone to care about me. Of the female gender, that is.

I don't think I can continue like this much longer.

I want more than the physical intimacy. I want to feel like I'm loved and needed and wanted. And valued. Life to me is pointless if you're on your own.

I'm going to be celebrating, nay, lamenting my 29th year on this planet, soon. If this torment just keeps going on forever, I don't want a 30th.

Calm down, l33t. ^ROFL

It's as if there is some kind of invisible barrier between me and women. No matter how hard I try it always end in the same way: rejection. And the truth is I know very well why: I am just not good looking enough. I am a below average looking nerdy guy and this makes it apparently impossible to get an at least somewhat atttractive girl. The older I get the clearer this fact becomes.

What a faggot thread, fucking delete it.

If it helps you find something that you can be good at in life and become the best at it.