My feelings

First, I would like to apologize if this is not in the proper section, I can't find a "Personal issue" or "romance" or whatever section. Lounge feel like the best possible place to post this.

I am in love with miwa. That is a big problem for me.
Every seconds of the day, I think about her, all I can think about is her. During the nights, she invades my dreams.
I don't feel like doing anything all day!!!
 
I am learning Japanese just so I could communicate with her, even though I know she speaks English, I have to make that effort to show how sincere I am!

Being a NEET, I do not have money to go to Japan to have more chances of meeting her, even though I know that the SONY fags would be overprotecting anyway, but being in Japan, would be easier. In Europe, there's absolutely no chance whatsoever to even dream of meeting her by chance in the streets / music stores / etc...
The few money I saved, I used it on buying her CDs. Her music helps me to be calmed when I am feeling a little pissed for whatever reason.

I have tried sending her a mail or two, not saying anything bad, just a normal email, not talking about love or anything.
I have never had any answer :( but I know it's hard to get one, she must receive a lot of mails all the time, so it got screened out probably.

Sometimes I wonder that maybe if she went to go back to INDIE it would be easier to talk to her, but if she does, how am I going to find her!!!! Argh this sucks!!!

This is the first time I'm feeling like this over someone, this is a new feeling, I don't even know how to react to this. I feel like writing on an anonymous board will help me get this out of chest and feel better.

I wish I could have a chat with her, know more about her...

I am in love with miwa.
That's where I stopped reading and put you on my blocklist.