Had a bad dream last night.

I dreamed that I stabbed my sister with one of my swords, because she was taking this piss out of me being a virgin. I'm starting to worry that if somebody ever finds out and takes the piss, I'll end up killing them. This is beginning to scare me.

Recently I've been angry that I'm still a virgin. Not sad, I'm not crying about my situation. I'm angry that I failed to achieve what is somewhat a standard in our culture. It started a few weeks ago. I didn't care prior to that. I'm 21.