Name: Anonymous 2009-01-06 22:09
These last few years have been hellish for me, everything just seems like it's getting gloomier and gloomier, I feel doomed and my whole body feels really really sore.
I can't help but to desire a relationship. I see so many saying that you should distract yourself, focus on your life, but how exactly are you supposed to forfeit your sexuality? You're reminded that you have one every single time you see an attractive female and the pain hurts you all the more.
I don't even feel like going out of my apartment anymore, seeing couples hugging each other all the time makes me feel like dying. Even if I'm not that hateful of a man by nature I'm beginning to really despise all women even if they're nice, in the end they only seem to ignore me, they never give me the time of day.
PostPosted: Sat Nov 15, 2008 8:41 pm Post subject: Afraid of what I'm living Reply with quote
Hi everyone. I'm a man in his late twenties who never had any form of intimacy in the opposite sex, nor any reciprocated interest. These last few years have been hellish for me, everything just seems like it's getting gloomier and gloomier, I feel doomed and my whole body feels really really sore.
I can't help but to desire a relationship. I see so many saying that you should distract yourself, focus on your life, but how exactly are you supposed to forfeit your sexuality? You're reminded that you have one every single time you see an attractive female and the pain hurts you all the more. In the past decade, no matter what I tried to do in order to forget about it, I absolutely never could, no matter if it was hobbies, studies, work, exercizing... it just seems like it's getting worse every month and it's driving me crazy, I can't even function normally anymore.
Right now I have a job but I'm so completely fucking fed up of always living alone and having no girl, and I'm so insanely horny and always longing that I'm fed up of anything, and always completely exhausted. I don't know how I'm able to drag myself to work on every week day. I don't have any more energy, I fear like I might simply stop coming to work. Then I'd have no money and I don't know how I'd keep on putting food on the table, and paying my rent and bills. I'm afraid that this is very real and I don't know how I'm going to pay for everything if this comes to fruition. I don't even feel like going out of my apartment anymore, seeing couples hugging each other all the time makes me feel like dying.
Even if I'm not that hateful of a man by nature I'm beginning to really despise all women even if they're nice, in the end they only seem to ignore me, they never give me the time of day. I'd had like 3-4 dates in my whole life and even though I did my best and the girls seemed to have a reasonably good time with me I could never get a second date from them. I've been rejected a few times and even though some of these rejections are years-old they still hurt.
I tried really hard to be serene and positive but I just don't care about anything anymore. If there's something I despise more than anything else it's people. Screw you. They say that your self worth doesn't depend on whether you're in a relationship or not. Bull-fucking-shit. It doesn't even matter what you think of yourself. EVERYONE thinks you're a loser if you stay lonely as you grow old, even if they won't say it aloud!
I can't help but to desire a relationship. I see so many saying that you should distract yourself, focus on your life, but how exactly are you supposed to forfeit your sexuality? You're reminded that you have one every single time you see an attractive female and the pain hurts you all the more.
I don't even feel like going out of my apartment anymore, seeing couples hugging each other all the time makes me feel like dying. Even if I'm not that hateful of a man by nature I'm beginning to really despise all women even if they're nice, in the end they only seem to ignore me, they never give me the time of day.
PostPosted: Sat Nov 15, 2008 8:41 pm Post subject: Afraid of what I'm living Reply with quote
Hi everyone. I'm a man in his late twenties who never had any form of intimacy in the opposite sex, nor any reciprocated interest. These last few years have been hellish for me, everything just seems like it's getting gloomier and gloomier, I feel doomed and my whole body feels really really sore.
I can't help but to desire a relationship. I see so many saying that you should distract yourself, focus on your life, but how exactly are you supposed to forfeit your sexuality? You're reminded that you have one every single time you see an attractive female and the pain hurts you all the more. In the past decade, no matter what I tried to do in order to forget about it, I absolutely never could, no matter if it was hobbies, studies, work, exercizing... it just seems like it's getting worse every month and it's driving me crazy, I can't even function normally anymore.
Right now I have a job but I'm so completely fucking fed up of always living alone and having no girl, and I'm so insanely horny and always longing that I'm fed up of anything, and always completely exhausted. I don't know how I'm able to drag myself to work on every week day. I don't have any more energy, I fear like I might simply stop coming to work. Then I'd have no money and I don't know how I'd keep on putting food on the table, and paying my rent and bills. I'm afraid that this is very real and I don't know how I'm going to pay for everything if this comes to fruition. I don't even feel like going out of my apartment anymore, seeing couples hugging each other all the time makes me feel like dying.
Even if I'm not that hateful of a man by nature I'm beginning to really despise all women even if they're nice, in the end they only seem to ignore me, they never give me the time of day. I'd had like 3-4 dates in my whole life and even though I did my best and the girls seemed to have a reasonably good time with me I could never get a second date from them. I've been rejected a few times and even though some of these rejections are years-old they still hurt.
I tried really hard to be serene and positive but I just don't care about anything anymore. If there's something I despise more than anything else it's people. Screw you. They say that your self worth doesn't depend on whether you're in a relationship or not. Bull-fucking-shit. It doesn't even matter what you think of yourself. EVERYONE thinks you're a loser if you stay lonely as you grow old, even if they won't say it aloud!