i am butthurt

this morning it hurt a little bit when i took a shit and there was blood on tp
after a few coffees and smokes i needed to shit again but this time it REALLY hurt, although there was no blood
an hour later it still hurts
i never thought this would happen to me

update: this morning it hurt alot again, no blood
i am afraid to eat, i think ill just go on an apple diet for the next few days until the wound is healed