I've turned into such a jaded, bitter prick, that none of my old friends want to be around me anymore. My co-workers hate me. My mom wont even look at me (heh, she's been stomping around and slamming doors whenever he sees me, just like an angsty 7 year old or something). Everyone that knows me is laughing behind my back, I still find myself burning bridges over it.
I just can't help it. I can't help but be cold and distant. I'm so sick of being used, abused, manipulated, hurt, stepped on and disappointed. And I hate it. I was a little more optimistic about life before. Now I'm depressed as hell. I mean, I'm just a miserable sod.
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Anonymous2008-05-27 7:22
dude, man up and just be nice,
accept that humans are not perfect, and excuse your friends when they make a mistake
aka dont be a dick
and all your problems will vanish
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Cactaur2008-05-27 12:50
This RedCream shit is really going on my needles. Can you stop, once and for all, impersonating him and making this shit up?
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AnOnYmOuS 2U2008-05-27 12:55
This is the first step, admit the problems that are effecting you. This is key to placing you within your point of origin. I keep thinking that my old ways of doing things can be packaged in such a way that I can pervay to you or anyone else that this stuff is difficult, but I end up making it sound easy. Easy is the part of imagination, hard is the part of practice and dedication and perseverance. 90% of the people in the world suffer from this affliction and the other 10% are no exception, they simply use it to their advantageous gain disadvantageous loss, whereas we 90% use it towards our disadvantageous gain or advantageous loss. From just the 6 years I've been in communication to train for this has placed me in the point of view that the actions of inaction and practice and dedication towards inactivity is no different than ignoring yourself and thereby others around you, causing a chain reaction of segregation, distancing, seperation, and eventually isolation. Animals do this only in their final moments just before death. It's not that there's anything wrong with it, what's wrong or right is perception, to disrespect your own perceptions is desrespectful to others because you are directly assaulting their very being. But, if you don't have that idea in mind as it happens, how can you observe reactions appropriately? All will be either missed or misidentified as such is the case with salts and proteins and fats with diets. Too much protein and you die from protein poisoning so add some fat to distill the protein concentration... it's more about relative perceptive balance than absolute understanding. And yes, even I have the ability to do the wrong thing and right, but to whom is it right and wrong too? Only me, just as what is right and wrong for you is only right and wrong for you, other people's opinions either are different and thereby defining of them or similar and unifying characteristics. So everyone has different ways of behaving. I'm still working on this stuff, you're not the only one in this train, there's a whole caravan right behind you and just in front of you as well. Good luck with your persuits. :)
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Anonymous2008-05-27 13:39
>>1
This is the logical course of development for someone who believes there is nothing greater than themselves.
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Anonymous2008-05-27 15:41
oh u
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AnOnYmOuS 2U2008-05-28 8:31
>>5, bravo! That's the equality of the human nature. All absolutes produced are formed after the relative perceptions of the observer/speaker. It is up to the receiver to do with it what he/she will.
Inactivity = Coal
Activity = Fire
Which direction are you headed?
To become fire, or to be consumed by fire?