Name: Anonymous 2008-01-04 2:58
I'm a 14 year old male. I'm not good in conversations, or in love, as I am shy. My older brother, has always made fun of me behind my back, taken my only girlfreind for his own, and so much more i've had so much grief over I can't remember. Let me explain a tad more in detail---
General--
I'm a tad overweight. My mom is divorced from my dad. I live in a motel, and pretty much run it by myself, as my mom lives 198 miles away on weekdays, working a good paying job. I work at the motel for little money, 5$ a week, is all I ask. I havent been paid in 5 months. Mother comes to the motel on weekends, and helps clean our nine rooms and our cabin unit. During the day I go to school, and get great grades (B+ honor roll, probally olny good thing that ever happened in my life.) and come home and run the motel all day. Yeah, school and work, is hard, but when you don't have any social life because of your brother, you find your days suddenly have more hours in them. I have a little brother and sister, 8 and 12 years, who have picked up on my older brothers', 15 years, swearing. So they run around the house and cuss all day. I don't have internet, or a computer(writing this from a public library), so online freindships/relationships are not available.
Freinds--
Bassically, I bring my freinds over to my house, and my they like my brother more than me. So, they stop being my freind and -you guessed it- start hanging out with my brother. Example:A few days ago, I walked by my brother and my best freind(my olny one left...)in school and heard them talking about tampons. Kinda odd I thought...anyways, my freind stole a pack of tampons from a local store, gave them to my brother, and he gave them to me, and told me they were from my best freind.
Love--
Now, my former best freind who knows alot about me, is constantly hitting on the girl I love, but I don't know what to do...so I sit there like a retard and watch him get closer to the girl of my dreams.
Family--
Now comes the best part. My brother is kinda a punk/wanna be skateboarder, so he listens to Metal all day, and whenever I confront him about our customers' satisfaction, and he will beat me up. In fact, he threw knives at me last night because I asked him if I could use the phone for motel buiseness.
Overall--
I'm seriously considering suicide. I just need some support, as in if you were in my place, would you commit suicide? Please try not to compare yourself to me, as I have olny scratched the surface. Thank you, to those that acually read that all.
General--
I'm a tad overweight. My mom is divorced from my dad. I live in a motel, and pretty much run it by myself, as my mom lives 198 miles away on weekdays, working a good paying job. I work at the motel for little money, 5$ a week, is all I ask. I havent been paid in 5 months. Mother comes to the motel on weekends, and helps clean our nine rooms and our cabin unit. During the day I go to school, and get great grades (B+ honor roll, probally olny good thing that ever happened in my life.) and come home and run the motel all day. Yeah, school and work, is hard, but when you don't have any social life because of your brother, you find your days suddenly have more hours in them. I have a little brother and sister, 8 and 12 years, who have picked up on my older brothers', 15 years, swearing. So they run around the house and cuss all day. I don't have internet, or a computer(writing this from a public library), so online freindships/relationships are not available.
Freinds--
Bassically, I bring my freinds over to my house, and my they like my brother more than me. So, they stop being my freind and -you guessed it- start hanging out with my brother. Example:A few days ago, I walked by my brother and my best freind(my olny one left...)in school and heard them talking about tampons. Kinda odd I thought...anyways, my freind stole a pack of tampons from a local store, gave them to my brother, and he gave them to me, and told me they were from my best freind.
Love--
Now, my former best freind who knows alot about me, is constantly hitting on the girl I love, but I don't know what to do...so I sit there like a retard and watch him get closer to the girl of my dreams.
Family--
Now comes the best part. My brother is kinda a punk/wanna be skateboarder, so he listens to Metal all day, and whenever I confront him about our customers' satisfaction, and he will beat me up. In fact, he threw knives at me last night because I asked him if I could use the phone for motel buiseness.
Overall--
I'm seriously considering suicide. I just need some support, as in if you were in my place, would you commit suicide? Please try not to compare yourself to me, as I have olny scratched the surface. Thank you, to those that acually read that all.