Name: Confused Nerd 2007-11-30 20:41
hah. get ready to read a novel. its one of those things maybe only i would understand. an act of fear, confusion, basically by doing this im being chicken. firstly, i dont want you to be worried, secondly, what im about to tell you, well, you probably shouldnt tell anyone. [i do realise how 'run-on' type sentance that just was.] i also realise what bad english might come out of me being confused. i honestly would've rather told you this over AIM but right now SOMETHING needs to be done. the actual point comes down to this:
so there's this guy who's [insert whatever appropriate age here] basically, he's older than me. i'm sort of in this long-distance relationship with him. we're incredibly close. it's almost surreal. everyone who knows what are conversations are like understands how much we love[d] each other. the [d] comes from the fact that i dont know weather he loves me anymore. [this is where i get confused] sure, im going to refrain from boring you about how incredible this guy really is. to get to the point he was once the world to me. i used to talk to him at least every other day. i haven't talked to him for a week. and the week before was the same. he won't reply to my facebook messages. and the last conversation we had was about how he was afraid of his own feelings. i'm going to see him soon, the age difference is large, he's afraid it'll all be different when i see him. that was pretty much the conversatioin. this part will sound so retarded to you, but his headline [on aim.] is part of a song called 'say goodbye' ... i wont disgust you with who it's by. one of my biggest fears at this point isn't that he doesnt love me. its that he's avoiding telling me. he hasn't said anything about not loving me anymore. the point is i feel like he's avoiding it. he's a busy guy, no doubt. he works, volunteers and has tests and all that shizz at school. i dont know what's wrong with me. i might be paranoid. my friend told me i should definitely talk to him. problem is, i dont know what to say. sure, i know i have to talk to him...okay. i have no idea where i was going with that.
i could write a novel, but i better stop there before i cry [...or punch a wall etc...] no, im not expecting a reply to this. i just needed to tell someone.
but hey, thanks for listening...i mean reading :]
so there's this guy who's [insert whatever appropriate age here] basically, he's older than me. i'm sort of in this long-distance relationship with him. we're incredibly close. it's almost surreal. everyone who knows what are conversations are like understands how much we love[d] each other. the [d] comes from the fact that i dont know weather he loves me anymore. [this is where i get confused] sure, im going to refrain from boring you about how incredible this guy really is. to get to the point he was once the world to me. i used to talk to him at least every other day. i haven't talked to him for a week. and the week before was the same. he won't reply to my facebook messages. and the last conversation we had was about how he was afraid of his own feelings. i'm going to see him soon, the age difference is large, he's afraid it'll all be different when i see him. that was pretty much the conversatioin. this part will sound so retarded to you, but his headline [on aim.] is part of a song called 'say goodbye' ... i wont disgust you with who it's by. one of my biggest fears at this point isn't that he doesnt love me. its that he's avoiding telling me. he hasn't said anything about not loving me anymore. the point is i feel like he's avoiding it. he's a busy guy, no doubt. he works, volunteers and has tests and all that shizz at school. i dont know what's wrong with me. i might be paranoid. my friend told me i should definitely talk to him. problem is, i dont know what to say. sure, i know i have to talk to him...okay. i have no idea where i was going with that.
i could write a novel, but i better stop there before i cry [...or punch a wall etc...] no, im not expecting a reply to this. i just needed to tell someone.
but hey, thanks for listening...i mean reading :]