Name: Anonymous 2007-09-30 0:55 ID:h4TPIWYA
I'm past the stage of wanting to get her back. She's gone and I'm likely to never see her again, so I've got to get her out of my head (and heart).
But I do want that feeling back. I want to have someone in my life again. I've been so lonely. I know the dangers of a rebound, but at least to have someone to talk to here and there would be better that what I have now, which is nobody.
Here's my main problem. My ex, the girl that turned out to be my first love, was my friend of nearly 5 years. I tried to date her when I first met her in college, but she had no interest in me then. I was literally head over heels for her at the time, though, and she knew it.
Well, fast-forward to a year ago. She was going through a nasty breakup with her ex. She needed support and I was there for her. We ended up having sex and the way she talked to me, it seemed like she finally realized she made a mistake by not giving me a chance in college. She told me she was in with love me, she and I were together nearly every day. And we were on the phone for hours a day for months!
Then, seemingly out of nowhere, she completely lost interest. I took nearly all summer, but I finally came to the conclusion that I needed to completely let go.
Here's my problem. I never had a girlfriend before her. That's not to say I haven't tried, because I dated a few girls here and there, and I got a few phone numbers. But I never even kissed a single girl in those 5 years. All the dates were train wrecks, and after a while of some girls never returning my phone calls, I eventually gave up.
So that's why I'm feeling so terrible right now. I feel like I'm a complete failure. I was supposed to have my life in order by now, and in reality, I'm EXACTLY where I was in college. Sure I have a good job and everything now, but emotionally and relationship wise, I'm a dud!
Now that she's gone, I can't imagine how I'm going to be able to move on to a new girl. I go out with friends all the time, but I never meet anyone. I've tried internet dating but I don't like it.
But I do want that feeling back. I want to have someone in my life again. I've been so lonely. I know the dangers of a rebound, but at least to have someone to talk to here and there would be better that what I have now, which is nobody.
Here's my main problem. My ex, the girl that turned out to be my first love, was my friend of nearly 5 years. I tried to date her when I first met her in college, but she had no interest in me then. I was literally head over heels for her at the time, though, and she knew it.
Well, fast-forward to a year ago. She was going through a nasty breakup with her ex. She needed support and I was there for her. We ended up having sex and the way she talked to me, it seemed like she finally realized she made a mistake by not giving me a chance in college. She told me she was in with love me, she and I were together nearly every day. And we were on the phone for hours a day for months!
Then, seemingly out of nowhere, she completely lost interest. I took nearly all summer, but I finally came to the conclusion that I needed to completely let go.
Here's my problem. I never had a girlfriend before her. That's not to say I haven't tried, because I dated a few girls here and there, and I got a few phone numbers. But I never even kissed a single girl in those 5 years. All the dates were train wrecks, and after a while of some girls never returning my phone calls, I eventually gave up.
So that's why I'm feeling so terrible right now. I feel like I'm a complete failure. I was supposed to have my life in order by now, and in reality, I'm EXACTLY where I was in college. Sure I have a good job and everything now, but emotionally and relationship wise, I'm a dud!
Now that she's gone, I can't imagine how I'm going to be able to move on to a new girl. I go out with friends all the time, but I never meet anyone. I've tried internet dating but I don't like it.