my life alone

so i thought i would be married by now, there was one girl i was going to marry but see got pergant with another guys baby and wanted me to raise the kid, i hasd to walk a way i couldn't do it i guess i was too young then, i wasn't ready for a kid let alone some one elses. there where
3 girl after her i could have married, but i could only choose one so i picked the one i grew up with
i was at one college her another i left school and moved out to hollywood to be a singer i asked her to come but she wouldn't was out there for two years i asked to move out with me alll the time i told her i needed her out htere that city was so fucken cold, she never came i lost touch with her after a while, but i think of her alot.
my last girl firend was high all the time thats fine and all if i was still in college, but i'm not i couldn't taslk to her. she was great at a party but not much there after that.
Now i'm alone again it's killing me, i have girls look at me alll the time, but it's aways lets party i'm sick of the party i want some thing real,
being alone is killing me slowly each day.

Dude, you should stop posting all those fake depression/suicide threads, seriously.
Not cool man, not cool.