Name: Anonymous 2007-09-04 12:03 ID:kUM1rkPR
I was wondering if people actually read the stuff that’s posted here? Has anyone actually truly gotten help here? I’d like to try and find real help, but I think I’ve run out of options. I’m afraid I’ll end up hurting others in order to kill myself, and sometimes I think perhaps it doesn’t matter and that’s for the best and that people don’t deserve to be taken into o account, since they would do the same if given the chance. No one seems to give a shit about me, so I’ve hardened myself over the years, and am no longer myself for much of the time. I find I cannot talk to anyone candidly, because they are trying to help others, but never me. I certainly will not go to a therapist anymore, because all they seem to give a shit about is that I don’t kill myself under their “care”; that wouldn’t look good on their resume,. Sometimes I even get the idea that they want me to harm them, because they always seem to try and drive me into a corner, where I’m damned if I say anything, and damned if I don’t. After seeing so many, I really do feel like death is going to be my only salvation.