Name: Anonymous 2007-09-04 5:46 ID:CsOZ5W+E
Some of you may remember me from the topic I posted a few months ago. I'm turning 20 soon and I haven't ever had a real girlfriend. I also have a set of self-made rules that I simply cannot break because my mind would destroy me.
I want my first girlfriend to preferably be a virgin like me but if she isn't,then I would like to 'lose it' to someone else. That 'someone else' would obviously have to be someone who means nothing to me because I would break it off after 'losing it'.
Do any other guys feel this way?
I'm angry because the only 'sort of' girlfriend I had was online and she lost her virginity to someone else *while* she was with me. I have always been angry,hurt and vengeful since then and vowed to never lose my virginity to my future girlfriend (whoever she might be) *unless* she is a virgin too. It sounds complicated but it's quite simple. Is anything wrong with me for thinking this way?
I NEVER cheated on my online girlfriend in any manner whatsoever but after what she did,I fantasize about cheating on one of my future girlfriends the same way just to get back at the female sex in general. (BTW,we've long since broken up and ceased contact,but I obviously haven't let go).
Yes,I have issues but it isn't my fault. I can't stand the thought of nobody being there to wish me on my 20th birthday (besides my parents). Why? Because nobody knows,and nobody gives a ___. I have made a fool of myself asking every girl I met her birth date in the hope she would ask me the same and remember it No such luck.
I thought and made a list of the girls who 'know' me.
1. My ex online g/f who has since moved on successfully
2. The girl who sat with me at supper on February 20th in the cafeteria
3. The waitress who touched my shoulder once.
Big fat list there,huh? Yeah right. Tell me,why shouldn't I just end it all? Nothing is going to get better. As for that 'nice guys finish last but DO finish',that should be expanded to '...but never find a virgin girl'. The only reason I'm still living is because I don't know of what's on the 'other side'.
I want my first girlfriend to preferably be a virgin like me but if she isn't,then I would like to 'lose it' to someone else. That 'someone else' would obviously have to be someone who means nothing to me because I would break it off after 'losing it'.
Do any other guys feel this way?
I'm angry because the only 'sort of' girlfriend I had was online and she lost her virginity to someone else *while* she was with me. I have always been angry,hurt and vengeful since then and vowed to never lose my virginity to my future girlfriend (whoever she might be) *unless* she is a virgin too. It sounds complicated but it's quite simple. Is anything wrong with me for thinking this way?
I NEVER cheated on my online girlfriend in any manner whatsoever but after what she did,I fantasize about cheating on one of my future girlfriends the same way just to get back at the female sex in general. (BTW,we've long since broken up and ceased contact,but I obviously haven't let go).
Yes,I have issues but it isn't my fault. I can't stand the thought of nobody being there to wish me on my 20th birthday (besides my parents). Why? Because nobody knows,and nobody gives a ___. I have made a fool of myself asking every girl I met her birth date in the hope she would ask me the same and remember it No such luck.
I thought and made a list of the girls who 'know' me.
1. My ex online g/f who has since moved on successfully
2. The girl who sat with me at supper on February 20th in the cafeteria
3. The waitress who touched my shoulder once.
Big fat list there,huh? Yeah right. Tell me,why shouldn't I just end it all? Nothing is going to get better. As for that 'nice guys finish last but DO finish',that should be expanded to '...but never find a virgin girl'. The only reason I'm still living is because I don't know of what's on the 'other side'.