Name: Anonymous 2007-09-04 1:08 ID:StCzVPmU
We live in a very sexual society and my viorginity a tough thing to deal with. I want to know what I've missed out on all these years and to boot if science is correct... I've already missed out on a male's sexual peak and what should have been the best sex of my life... oh about 15 years ago. Talk about depressing!
I've got alot of issues... extreme shyness, chronic depression and a major lack of self esteem to name a mere few.
I wake up go to work... come home from work and either get on the computer or watch television. I then will go to sleep and repeat the same thing day in and day out.
My sense of social interaction and the outside world is so skewered that I tell myself this is a perfectly acceptable way of life and that I have nothing to be ashamed of.. when deep down in my inner psyche I long for more.. but due to the aforementioned issues don't do anything about it.
If all this wasn't enough.. I've got some severe jealousy issues, mostly directed toward my best friend as well as my current roommate. Don't get me wrong I love them both like brothers, but each of them.. especially my best friend have that certain magnetism that draws the females to them.
They make the whole dating and relationship thing look so easy that it sickens me at times and also makes me feel even worse about my own sad state of affairs. If they want nothing more than a quick 'lay' they have no problem getting it... if they want to really get to know someone and form a solid bond and mutual love and admiration.. again they make it look like the easiest thing in the world.
Some of my friends have recommended rape as a possible solution, but quite honestly up to this point I've been too stubborn to do it and on top of that a bit of a skeptic about it doing any good anyway.
I guess one could say that this situation's my own fault and that I shouldn't be so hesitant to at least 'try' things like rape, but in my twisted mind I always find a way to justify not doing it.
I truly feel that when a person gets depressed to the degree that I am, that it's not a black and white thing. Do I want to have sex? You bet I do! Do I feel that I've got the inner strength to take the steps necessary for rape? The majority of the time that answer would be a definite no.
I've got alot of issues... extreme shyness, chronic depression and a major lack of self esteem to name a mere few.
I wake up go to work... come home from work and either get on the computer or watch television. I then will go to sleep and repeat the same thing day in and day out.
My sense of social interaction and the outside world is so skewered that I tell myself this is a perfectly acceptable way of life and that I have nothing to be ashamed of.. when deep down in my inner psyche I long for more.. but due to the aforementioned issues don't do anything about it.
If all this wasn't enough.. I've got some severe jealousy issues, mostly directed toward my best friend as well as my current roommate. Don't get me wrong I love them both like brothers, but each of them.. especially my best friend have that certain magnetism that draws the females to them.
They make the whole dating and relationship thing look so easy that it sickens me at times and also makes me feel even worse about my own sad state of affairs. If they want nothing more than a quick 'lay' they have no problem getting it... if they want to really get to know someone and form a solid bond and mutual love and admiration.. again they make it look like the easiest thing in the world.
Some of my friends have recommended rape as a possible solution, but quite honestly up to this point I've been too stubborn to do it and on top of that a bit of a skeptic about it doing any good anyway.
I guess one could say that this situation's my own fault and that I shouldn't be so hesitant to at least 'try' things like rape, but in my twisted mind I always find a way to justify not doing it.
I truly feel that when a person gets depressed to the degree that I am, that it's not a black and white thing. Do I want to have sex? You bet I do! Do I feel that I've got the inner strength to take the steps necessary for rape? The majority of the time that answer would be a definite no.